Monday, February 22, 2010
After a year of slacking, doing yoyo and feeling depressed, I'm back.
I spend last summer in China and it pretty much ruined my efforts, because of eating every single meal out and no occasion to exercise. I didn't gain much weight, but I'm definitely seeing more fat than before (hello muffin top!).
This depressed me, and even though I didn't want to admit it it had an influence on other aspects of my life. I'm less energetic, more lazy, I over-eat even more than before and my mood swings are crazy!
Worst of all, after a 3-4 normal months my eating disorder showed up again.
If I don't do something NOW, I'm going to get sick. I already see the results of my eating disorder on my body, one of my front teeth is damaged, while I used to have a perfectly healthy mouth =( My smile & teeth were things I really liked about me (one of the few things I liked), and now this...
But I'm through with this. Today I really exercised for the first time in several months, and it made me feel GOOD!
I'm into dancing, & I found that Dancing workout DVDs work for me better than anything, so I'll stick with that for a while.
When I began restricting (Summer 2007), I was restricting a LOT and that's when my eating disorder appeared, I would beat myself up for any extra. I figured out that if I exercise more, I'll be able to eat a little more to and consequently save myself from all the hassle of over-restricting.
Plan : track food, exercise 6 days/week (cardiox3, strength trainingx3), and of course portion control so that I'm not tempted to get rid of the food.