Trying to find my way back

Sunday, February 21, 2010

This is my first blog entry in a looong time. To be honest I don't even remember the last time I was on SparkPeople. However, what I do remember is how bad I've been doing on my quest to lose weight. I have realized how being accountable (even if only logging on a few times a week) can really make a difference. When I was using SparkPeople before I went from around 155 to 149, but I felt like nothing was really working, I couldn't seem to make myself stay focused enough to follow the rules and thus I remained at 149. Well I can do fine on my own, I thought, plus I'm busy and don't have time to constantly log on and track food and exercise. Well I was flat out WRONG. I am now 156.4 pounds, which is 1.6 pounds higher than last time I started.

I may be busy and now working full time but I can't keep using it as an excuse because obviously it have gotten me nowhere except in a worse position. I am hoping to get back on track and this time stick with SparkPeople even if the going gets tough. I feel like I've hit rock bottom (again) and am tired of feeling sorry for myself, and feeling guilty because I brought this upon myself. I am going to lost this weight because:
I DO NOT want to be embarrassed of how I look in a bathing suit come summer.
I DO NOT want to look in the mirror and want to cry.
I DO NOT want to be the chubby friend.
I DO NOT want people to look surprised when I tell them I used to be the flyer on the cheerleading team.
I DO NOT want to avoid shopping for clothes because I can't stand that I can no longer even fit a leg into size 5/7 jeans.

So in order to do this I have come up with a game plan:

emoticonStep 1: Relearn the basics
-I am completely restarting the Spark program from day 1 to relearn the basics I skipped over or have forgotten.

emoticonStep 2: Start regularly exercising
-I am going to start a couch to 5K program which I installed an app for on my iphone (it has it set up into a week by week program and tells you when to run and when to walk while your music is playing. How cool is that??)
-I started doing walking dates with my mom. (We live 4.5 hours away but we both need to exercise so we set a time and date, then call each other and talk while we walk in separate cities)

emoticonStep 3: Reminding myself to cook
-Start making my own meals (With work I constantly eat out or pick something up on my way home because I'm so tired) and planning a weekly eating schedule.

After these steps who knows where it will lead but the most important thing to be is relearning the basic, fundamental way to get myself back on a healthy lifestyle track. I appreciate all suggestions, feedback and helpful tidbits :) Also if anyone is Tallahassee would like to go walking together I'd definitely be up for a walking partner just sparkmessage me if you're interested!!

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    This is great news! I've fallen off the wagon sooo many times that I literally have lost count. I have two pieces of advice. First, take baby steps and focus on the small victories. If you take on too much you won't hit your goals and want to quit. Second, if you can, switch to drinking water during the week. I drink from a water bottle during the day and have cranberry juice with dinner. On the weekends I still drink water, but allow myself to have some Ginger Ale or Sprite if I want. Drinking more water and less soda (even diet) helped me shed some weight quickly.

    2730 days ago
    Looks like you really have a good plan since you are specific about the different things that you want to accomplish. I'm proud of you and I know you can do it this time. I'm also reading your blog and needing to apply it to myself also. Thanks for sharing.
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    2827 days ago
    I am happy to here that you are getting back on track and have a plan to do that. It is hard to keep track of your nutrition and fitness but you have got to find the time for yourself. Others tell me this too and I am working hard to do it. Hang in there !
    2827 days ago
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