Saturday, February 20, 2010
Just a quick blog, I am so close to my goal of a 100 lb weight loss. This is what I perceive to be the “Holy Grail” of weight loss, having lost more than 100 lbs. The funny part of it is that it doesnt even seem real to me sometimes. I put on some of my old clothes and look like Bozo The Clown because they are so baggy, I mean REALLY baggy. I look in the mirror and see not quite the fluffy guy I used to be. I get positive remarks but even that doesn’t really make it real.
The only thing that makes it real is what I am able to do and what I dont have to deal with anymore because of my loss. Now, running a 5k is less effort than tying my shoes used to be. Now, I can climb stairs without wondering if I am going to have a heart attack. Now, I can play my trombone in our group without sweating profusely and feeling lightheaded. Now, I believe that I just might live past 50. The best part of all is that now, I am a runner. every time I push myself to run a little faster, increase my pace, break a personal record, achieve some new distance, I get a little closer to who I want to be and a little farther from who I was. When I completed my first race in November, I became a new man when I was handed the 10K completion ribbon. I am now a runner, striving against myself and the old me. Being able to run makes it real to me because it is the embodiment of everything that is right and good about my journey. Before, I couldnt run to the fridge, now I can go 5-6 miles with no issues. I will never surrender my new abilities to apathy again.
Getting my life back, one mile at a time.