This Am was a sleep in day for me. I haven’t had a good nights rest since the week before going to CA for the Surf City Marathon. Yet that was my choice. On my Mornings off I had been getting up early to go for walks. We’ll what made this morning different? I gave myself permission to sleep in. I could get my walk in before noon so that was ok. As I lied there in bed telling myself I should get up and get this over with my body was telling me something different. It was reminding me of my aches and pains. I hate Mornings like this. Then my Cat (Chardonnay) decided that she would lie on my chest and sooth me with her purring, then up comes Fawn my little Baby, she is a Schnauzer/ Lhasa Apso mix. She puts her head onto my neck and snuggles, so anyway we lie there snuggling, yes all 3 of us and I was enjoying the moment.
After snuggling with my furry children I got up. Hurting bad.. I kept telling myself “sorry your not getting out of going for the walk today”. I went to the kitchen got a cup of coffee and decided I better fire up the wii and do my weigh in and some fitness items to get the body moving. So I did and I was still aching. I went to the kitchen still not listening to my body and fixed my Protein Smoothie with fruit. Then sat at the PC to check E-mails and check on some friends.. Well as I was there I say another Caring bridge for Lili, my Heart Jumps every time I see those. Well her Mommy posted ~ The disease in Lilli's lungs is worse. I am not sure if she has more infiltration or if it is simply all of the blood products that have transfused, but either way, Lilli is very sick. ~ I got to that point and started tearing up and Praying. So young, innocent and so much life to live. Well! I Posted her caring bridge link on FB and also a picture of her and Maddie sitting together a little over a year ago when they were both waiting for their Bone Marrow transplant along with a Prayer.
Survivor.. see it in her face!!
After that prayer I realized again!! Becki this is why you are active, you promised your grandchildren you would be there for them, to Pray with, to Play with, Walk with, live with and Love as a Healthy active Grandma!
Well I put my Knee and back brace on and then my sweats and shoes. Looked at Hubby and said I’m heading out to do the 23rd walk (fitness map Tracker name). He gave me that smile! I put my I pod on, looked at my watch and went out the door with a new attitude. As I was walking I prayed to God to give me a Great walk and keep the dogs in their yards (because I forgot my Plastic bat) and praised him every time I passed a yard with a barking dog that stayed. I was about half way through my walk and was feeling out of steam! NO!! this can’t be happening, Then I started praying for Maddie, Lili and all of the Families that have influenced my life with their Lives and Losses.. I can do this!!!
Well I made it back home feeling Good that I accomplished my walk even though my Body was doing it’s best to tell me I couldn’t do it. Lord I thank you for always being with me, you have never left me, you are always there right by my side. Yes I admit I don’t understand the Whys yet I do acknowledge there is a lesson in all I (we) go through. I am not in pain!!!! What these Children are going through is PAIN!!! How dare I feel sorry for myself.. I will do what I can to help myself become Better, Happier & Healthier person.
At my start/Stop point I Looked at my watch and said “Not Bad” I walked 3.32 Miles in 45 minutes and burned 353 Calories…
Look at this picture.. Look into Maddies Eyes. Not only do we see a Little girl with determination to get through this, we see a fight to keep going and not let these bumps in the road stop her... I have said it before and I will say it again.. Maddie is my Hero!! when I grow up I want to be like her.. A SURVIVOR
Thanks for letting me share & Thank you Jesus for allowing me to go through this. Without this I wouldn't be the person I am.