Child Care/Workout Guilt
Friday, February 19, 2010
Hmm, I had a goal of making it to 2 water workouts this week. Does it count as two if I went to the gym on one occasion but stayed for two classes?
I took DD to the gym with me last night and put her in the child care room while I did my classes. It was the first time I'd used that service at the gym. I felt somewhat guilty, picking her up from being at day care all day, then driving across town to the gym and putting her in the child care room there for 2 hours. Oh, not to mention stopping at McDs on the way for a happy meal so I could feed her dinner. Of course, SHE didn't mind the McDs. I knew the only way I would get a structured workout is if I did this. DH was working late, and I wouldn't have made it to do anything if I hadn't done this. DD is very clingy when it comes to dropping her off at day care. She'll start to throw a fit as DH or I leave, but once we are out of sight, she's usually fine. But I kept my eye on the window to the hallway, half expecting them to be knocking and calling me back to get her. When I was done and picked her up, I asked if she'd had fun, and she told me yes. I guess she attached herself to a 10 year old that was there, playing with her and sitting in her lap pretty constantly. I think it reminded her of cousin Erin.
So, it was good for me that I made an effort to workout, but was it right to have her in child care so much? Or how ironic that I fed her a happy meal while I was on my way to do a healthy activity?
Being a working Mom, I'm finding it hard to find time for myself outside of work. It seems like I come home, get dinner going, get everyone fed, then it's time for DD to have a bath and get ready for bed. So, if I go work out right after work, DH has made something goofy to feed DD. Or if I go right after dinner, I miss out on time with DD. And I've had such a hard time with self-motivation when it comes to popping in a tape or jumping on my elliptical machine. I've been getting a better workout if I leave the house to do it. What to do? I know that taking care of myself now and building a self-care routine will be better for not only me, but DD as well, in the long run. But am I taking too much away from her in the short run?