Thursday, February 18, 2010
today marks the 12th year my beautiful mother passed away from cervical cancer that then recurred as lung cancer and gave lumps to her breasts.
She loved God and she loved her family and she loved her students. she was a teacher.....a great one!
she was a Christian first, the best mother a child could hope for and a fabulous wife.
I know that if I end up to be half the woman she was, my life will be a success!
Also, on this day, I am re-evaluating why I want to be healthy....while I know that I cannot neccesarily prevent all disease or sickness, I definitely want to do my part to help my body stay as healthy as I can be. I want to be healthy in my body, mind, and spirit.
My mother dealt with weight issues all of my life and had a lot of stress, financially, maritally, in her workplace and also because of the religious cult my father had us in. she just dove into her role as mother and teacher and she tried to focus on what WAS good in her life. She was the kind of person who definitely maed lemonade from lemons.
just now about 2yrs ago I got rid of the religious cult and went thru some counseling a year after that. (i do need a bit more :-))
I am going to start a new business with my aunt which was a difficult decision to make for many reasons I wont go into here : -) ( ur welcome :-0) This will, however, take ALOT of the stress off of my life, emotionally, phisically and financially. I will be able to mkae more money, working less hours ,closer to home....which means I will get more sleep( good in every way) and be able to spend more time with my boyfriend and my animals. I will maybe even gain more relationships( I lost many of them as a result of my work and leaving the cult)
I will even be able to be more active as a result of more time!...hey, what about a vacation....last one I had was when I was 15yrs old....i'll be 29 this year!
I want to be healthy, and knowledgable about the things that will help me on this journey.
I want to put the work into getting my emotional trauma healed, so that I can get my food addiction even more under control, which definitely is a reflection of my emotional state.
I want healthy relationships, so that I can give back to this wonderful world God has created for us, that has given me so much.
I want to be closer to My dear and wonderful God who is my inspiration, my hope, my support and my help!
I want to put every effort into keeping my most precious relationship with my best friend and love, jeffrey, as wonderful as it can be. I want to grow and mature in this relationship with him!
I want to live a long healthy life with my, will be husband, jeffrey, and future- possible children. I want to live this life that the Lord has given to me as healthy and a long as I can and that He has known that I should.
I need to keep the stress as low as possible, I need more sleep, I must remember to put healthy, nutritious things into my body, take my vitamins, drink my water, get my body moving and never forget my God......these are the things can be my input to my health...the rest will be up to God! He is good and I love Him!
Im thankful that you all have taken the time to let me share my many thoughts. I am grateful for you all!