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Tough day, struggling here

Thursday, February 18, 2010

We've had stomach flu pass through our house, and everybody came through fine except for my daughter who has really been ill. I stayed home from work today to take care of her, and to try to rehydrate her, because when I took her to the doctor yesterday she said that she may need IV electrolytes if things didn't improve.

I found out that in my absence my best at-work friend had a seizure and was taken to the hospital. I know I shouldn't feel guilty, but I do feel terribly guilty. I know that there is nothing I could have done to prevent this, but it really has me upset that I wasn't there for her.

I think part of the reason I have ended up at my highest weight of 257lbs was my constant need to take care of others, and my lack of ability to care for myself. I'm a mom, and a nurse, so sometimes there is no way around this simple reality, but I think I need help from some of the other sparkers on how to take care of myself when those around me are having troubles. I am really struggling today, and I am so afraid of emotional eating, and slipping back into my pattern of putting myself last, that I haven't eaten anything today because I just can't come up with the right idea.
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  • JOHAL52
    [[hugs]] Wisdom says that in order to take care of others, you need to take care of yourself first. Of course, that's easier said than done, isn't it? You made the right decision today to take care of your daughter because you knew she was ill. There was no way you could have known that your friend would have a seizure and, besides, you aren't the only (hopefully) in her life. Let others care for her, you had other priorities.

    And that's what it boils down to--prioritizing. Now, as you took care of your daughter, you could also have been taking care of yourself. Relaxing by reading a good book while she was sleeping, something that made you happy. Or maybe the two of you curled up on the sofa, watching a happy movie, having good mommy/daughter time. Making something healthy and delicious and eating it slowly and carefully, mindful that YOU are taking care of YOU.

    There are lots of simple ways to take care of yourself that don't take a lot of time or effort. Think about them, make a list of them and DO them.

    You deserve it.
    2950 days ago
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