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February Update

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I am still going up and down on the blasted scale. I have been doing this since July. It's frustrating. Talk at my support group meeting last night about this issue by many and the consensus is that now, 18 months post op, it is more a mind game than anything. I have to make a more conscious effort to stay away from the old habits of eating to comfort myself and eating the things that piled on the pounds in the first place. Healthy foods, like fresh fruit (which I love) is just so expensive. Then again, I can get my beloved raspberries or a box of 100 calorie snacks for the same price. Hmmmm ... but the snacks last days. I eat all the raspberries in one sitting. LOL It IS about choices, no?

I am staying within calorie range. I am burning calories daily so that I end up the day actually eating about 1000 net calories. I feel like I'm doing this all wrong now. I will talk with the nutritionist about this next month when I go for my 18 month post op visit with my surgeon. I sometimes wonder if I am not taking in enough calories. Then again, maybe I eat too many carbs. It doesn't seem like I am but ... something isn't working for me. I hope the NUT can get to the bottom of it. I would really like to lose another 40 lbs before my body decides is it done. OR has it already already done that seeing as how I have not lost anything really in six months? I dunno.

I am seriously considering doing this 'walk to run' program that runs for ten weeks starting in April. It meets on Saturday mornings. The first week you walk four mins and run for two (or as much of the two as you can). You build on that as you go, and by the end of ten weeks, you are supposed to be able to run for thirty mins. I dunno. Maybe I'd like running if I am not on a treadmill. I absoluetly HATE running on the treadmill. I'm always afraid I'll trip and fall. Is it worth a shot? What do you think? I still don't think I'll be able to do it. I am my own worst enemy.

So that is what is going on with me right now. Examining a lot of issues and learning I kind of sort of like the person I am becoming. I am also learning that I have to take care of me and everyone else is on their own.
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    Karon, I know what you mean about the foodstuff we need bing so expensive. it was just so much easier when we were eating all those cheap macaroni and cheese, spaghetti, mashed potato, bread, and other high carb dishes that were so inexpensive to make...and yummy to eat. *sigh* but---that's what got us fat as heck in the first place, right?

    Just hang in there kiddo, that fat is being stubborn, but i know you'll get it all off. You are a vibrant, amazing woman and not about to let this get you down!

    many hugs---Georgia
    2943 days ago
    Hey Karon,
    Good luck getting things figured out. I know how you feel the scale goes up and down for me as well. I hope they can figure it out and get you going again. Try the walk and run you might find you like doing it.

    2950 days ago
    I think you should try the walk and run thing. It sounds like you may need to change your exercising habits. Somedays do one thing, other days do something else. Just do something! Somedays I love to put my headset on with my favorite tunes and just move (I use a lot of the Leslie Sansone moves) and put my own into it. It is so much fun! Today, I'm using some of my tunes to get warmed up, then switch to the rest of a Walk at Home dvd. It's suppose to get warmer today, so I'm going to try for a 20 minute walk outside.

    Don't give up! Switch it around. I have also found that fast food costs a whole lot more than the healthy food. Don't forget the protein! It carries you farther than those 100 calorie snacks!

    I hate to see you be discouraged.

    Best to you.
    2950 days ago
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