Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I've had a tough time staying with my program recently. At the beginning of October my brother wasn't feeling well. He thought he had a kidney infection and went to the doctors. He was diagnosed with leukemia. They told him at first that the prognosis was good, then it wasn't then it was.... a real roller coaster. He had some complications and passed away at the end of November. I live on the east coast and he lived in the pacific north west. He was feeling good, so I didn't go out to see him, I figured I would go once I could get the H1N1 shot because that was one thing he didn't need. (That ended up being one of the complications, but he recovered from that!) He said that if the doctors weren't telling him he was sick, he wouldn't know it. He felt great - right up till about the last 10 days or so.
After he died I ended up going out there for the memorial service and that took me away from my program.
I know it isn't an excuse.... but it is the reason.
I just haven't been able to get motivated to get back to it. The last few days have been good. On Saturday I had the highest ever step count on my pedometer. 18,562 steps!! So I am getting back on track now. I've only gone to the gym twice this year, but my bag is in the car and ready to go. I've been using the Leslie Sansone DVD's and the Wii so I am getting some exercise. I haven't been sticking to a healthy diet either, but that is also been better the last few days. I know that I won't go back to the old me. I like me better when I am sticking with a program. I feel better, I have more energy, and I'm more productive. There isn't any down side - why is it so hard to stick to!
Oh well... that is my rant for the day!!