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    ELKAY6   8,025
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I've had a tough time staying with my program recently. At the beginning of October my brother wasn't feeling well. He thought he had a kidney infection and went to the doctors. He was diagnosed with leukemia. They told him at first that the prognosis was good, then it wasn't then it was.... a real roller coaster. He had some complications and passed away at the end of November. I live on the east coast and he lived in the pacific north west. He was feeling good, so I didn't go out to see him, I figured I would go once I could get the H1N1 shot because that was one thing he didn't need. (That ended up being one of the complications, but he recovered from that!) He said that if the doctors weren't telling him he was sick, he wouldn't know it. He felt great - right up till about the last 10 days or so.

After he died I ended up going out there for the memorial service and that took me away from my program.

I know it isn't an excuse.... but it is the reason.

I just haven't been able to get motivated to get back to it. The last few days have been good. On Saturday I had the highest ever step count on my pedometer. 18,562 steps!! So I am getting back on track now. I've only gone to the gym twice this year, but my bag is in the car and ready to go. I've been using the Leslie Sansone DVD's and the Wii so I am getting some exercise. I haven't been sticking to a healthy diet either, but that is also been better the last few days. I know that I won't go back to the old me. I like me better when I am sticking with a program. I feel better, I have more energy, and I'm more productive. There isn't any down side - why is it so hard to stick to!
Oh well... that is my rant for the day!!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
TRACEE5 2/17/2010 9:52AM

    emoticon You needed time to heal and mourn the loss. Now it's time to make your brother proud! You can get back on track, just need to find your motivation!! emoticon

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AMITAI 2/17/2010 4:26AM

    So sorry about your brother.
Take each day slowly. Don't beat yourself up over the things you are not doing, but give yourself a pat on the back for the things that you are doing. Like walking or exercising, that is still better than eating not on program and not exercising. Find the positives and keep focused on that and keep making strides for more positives. The negatives will only bring you down and out. Hang in there. We have all been there and still go there. We are here for you if you need us, just call.

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UNIONDIVA 2/16/2010 10:18PM

    So sorry about your brother :( Please accept my condolences

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ELKAY6 2/16/2010 10:14PM

I agree that each day is a clean slate. That is the only thing that is keeping me going! I used think that there wasn't any use in being on track if I couldn't STAY on track. Missing my goals for a couple of days would make be give up. Why bother?? I know better now and if I fall down, I just get back up. If I fall again, I'll get up again. No reason to stay down!

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GREATGRACE 2/16/2010 10:06PM

    Dear Elkay6-

I am sorry for your loss of your brother. We all need time to morn loss and I hope that you have given your self that time.

I am an emotional eater so I understand how our emotions can knock us off track. For me I have to identify why I am eating what I am eating, and usually it slows the process. And sometimes I eat it anyways. But tomorrow is another day with a fresh start, and I chose not to be burdened with what I "did wrong" today. Each day is a clean slate.

This journey is life long. Make each day count! Smile at everyone you meet! The Blessing of a smile always returns!

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