Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I have finally learned to add photos to my Spark Page with the help of one of my Spark friends. What I realized when finished is that the pictures of me are from 8 years ago when I was fit & trim, or of my dogs. I started looking for current pictures of myself and could not find any. I am realizing just how much weight effects everything. Obviously avoiding pictures, not looking in mirrors etc.
So it would seem that while you add weight pound by pound, your self esteem leaves pound by pound. Or, is it just buried beneath the layers?
It cannot be a permanent loss, because I want those pictures with loved ones, of vacations and fun times. I do not want to go on not fully engaged with my life.
My challenge to me is to stop avoiding the reminders of my weight gain and face them head on. I cannot change what I won't acknowledge. Therefore, I acknowledge that I am overweight, I accept that I allowed this to happen and I believe I have the power to change starting today.