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Self Esteem???? Where is it?

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I have finally learned to add photos to my Spark Page with the help of one of my Spark friends. What I realized when finished is that the pictures of me are from 8 years ago when I was fit & trim, or of my dogs. I started looking for current pictures of myself and could not find any. I am realizing just how much weight effects everything. Obviously avoiding pictures, not looking in mirrors etc.
So it would seem that while you add weight pound by pound, your self esteem leaves pound by pound. Or, is it just buried beneath the layers?
It cannot be a permanent loss, because I want those pictures with loved ones, of vacations and fun times. I do not want to go on not fully engaged with my life.
My challenge to me is to stop avoiding the reminders of my weight gain and face them head on. I cannot change what I won't acknowledge. Therefore, I acknowledge that I am overweight, I accept that I allowed this to happen and I believe I have the power to change starting today.
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NANADERRICK 2/17/2010 12:52PM

    you have it by the horns!!! I am really proud of your progress and love this blog!! More of us should get a grip like you have. Keep us all inspired emoticon

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FREELADY 2/16/2010 3:58PM

    Wow, are you eloquent. This is powerful. Thank you so much for sharing it with us.

Regarding the self-esteem query, I have some observations even from these few paragraphs. You are a person who learns new things! You are someone who is loved by talented friends who like to help you! You are kind to animals! You are a person who is adventurous and takes vacations! PLUS you are honest, insightful, and courageous!

[Not to mention a biggie in my book: You are a person who is able to find photos that were taken 8 years ago!!!]


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KSUEY55 2/16/2010 2:36PM

    I have been a photo- dodger for several years now.. Finally on my 55th birthday, Jan 5, with my best friend over, I had my son take a picture of us together. When I looked at the pic I was dismayed- I was as big as she was- and she's always been bigger that me--I had to face reality! And that one picture was enough to get me started back in to my healthy weight loss regimen. I am more determined than ever to get back where I was (50 lbs ago!)
So take that picture and put it somewhere where only you can see it and study it for as long as it takes to get you moving again! Good luck! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SPATTEN2001 2/16/2010 2:20PM

    You have done the hardest part ... taken the first step! I have a photo of me and my best friends in Maui and a picture of me and all my first cousins in front of me at work at all times. It is a very nice feeling when people come by the office and say that isn't you (I have lost 24 lbs since these were taken) and I say, 'oh yes it is!' Take a photo now ... put it somewhere that it will remind you daily ... you can be the woman from 8 years ago ... step by step by step!

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