Saturday, February 13, 2010
okay spark friends....
first of all... thank you soooo much for helping me during my woe is me moments. im not gonna lie... ive been a ball of woe is me moments and no more.
im sick and tired of feeling like i dont have control over my life. yesterday i scrubbed in on a tumor removal from the BRAIN and it was just amazing. to be standing there... having a pulsing brain just inches from my face... there are no words to describe it. i definitely feel like that is what i want for myself... to be able to do that on my own someday. i dont want to waste my time feelign sorry for myself because in reality... i have nothing to feel bad about. yah sure im packing it in the back more than id like... but its something i can take care of. i dont want my weight obsession to take over my energies anymore!
from now on... im going to be more positive. refocus myself on my studies and just let the emotions detach from the weight issues naturally... and just let my body get back to where it naturally wants to be.
thanks sparkers!! i feel really safe here and it means a lot to me to be able to express myself here :)