Thursday, February 11, 2010
I used to love running through the river valley in the city where I used to live. This was ten years ago, when I was a fit 148 lbs and led a healthier lifestyle. I remember how great it felt to get out in the fresh air and clear my head. Ten years later I find myself many pounds heavier and disappointed in myself and the choices I made that got me to this point. I'm tired of being tired and stressed all the time. I need an outlet and decided that returning to running, the activity that I looked forward to once, was the way to go.
This past summer I started running again. The first couple of weeks were painful but then as my body adapted it became enjoyable and something I looked forward to doing.
A few weeks ago I signed up for a 5 km fun run back in the river valley of the city I used to live in. I thought it would be a great motivator for me to sign up for a race. Shame avoidance is my motivator now - I don't want to be the last in the line of runners, gasping for breath, feeling like my lungs are going to burst, or worse yet, having to drop out before I reach the finish line. How embarassing would that be? I'm determined to do it! At the same time I'm scared that I won't be able to.
31 days left until the big race!