Wednesday, October 11, 2006
This semester has been a rough one, there have been several times when I really didn't think I was going to make it. I'm now a nanny for a 4 year old with autism, and going to school full time, which includes working in an elementary school at least 10 hours a week. I haven't gained any weight back, but I def. haven't lost any either, which sucks. And I don't want to say that I don't have time time, because technically, I could fit exercise into my schedule, but between chasing after the 4 year old and trying to get him to and from school on time as well as myself to and from school on time, I am absolutly exhausted. I've picked bad habits back up, like eating fast food. I don't do it much, but it still happens, which is no good. But, I mean, I'm gone from my apartment for 12 to 15 hours a day. Its a hard thing to adjust to.
I'm just frustrated with it all right now. I feel like its never going to stop. Honeestly, it probably doesn't help that I haven't been able to go home to see my family since the beginning of July. I miss them like crazy.
And on top of everything else, I started all of this with my roommate, who only has herself and her dog to deal with and has been able to continue losing weight. She also had significantly less weight to loss and now she looks great and I am still fat. Not one person (with the exception of my mother and father) have noticed any of the 40 lbs that I have lost. Its really difficult to always hear people telling her how great she looks and still just see the same ol' fat Kristine.
I'm just venting currently, I need a break from life. But, its offf to bed for me now, I never realized how much work being a nanny is!!!