Saturday, February 06, 2010
A weird and wonderful thing happened this morning. I woke up early to do some clean up around the house and with out even knowing it I found myself spontaneously singing scales!?!? Why is this so weird and wonderful? I haven't felt like this in a long, long time.
This morning I felt calm and happy! I was looking forward to all the good things I was going to do for my self this weekend including exercising and making some yummy, healthy meals (even in the face of SuperBowl Sunday). And I was looking forward to the jobs I put on my list for today.
This is such a 180 from my usual "sleep as long as I possibly can because I'm so exhausted from the week and don't want to face my messy house" feeling I usually have. I woke up feeling hopeful, not resentful of the jobs "I have to do" today. Those negative feelings of anxiousness, resentfulness and depression over my situation are some of the main things that make me want to dive face first into a half-gallon of ice cream. (Not that I wouldn't enjoy a MODEST PORTION of ice cream,) but this is a very new attitude and outlook for me. Yeah!
I think the fact that SparkPeople has helped me set goals and track my success and that it encourages a positive, active approach to weight loss has really made a difference for me. I have found ways to order out for lunch on Friday's with the gang based on better food choices so I don't feel deprived. And I believe that the high quality "good" food I'm putting in my body is improving my mental state as well.
This "feeling" is a wonderful motivator. I have declared February the "do what it takes to love myself" month and it feels great! Thank you SparkPeople!