Friday, February 05, 2010
So for the first time in 36 days, I binged. Great job.
I'm writing this because other people should know that I ate 400 calories worth of mini hostess cupcakes and two choco-pops, and please feel free to look at everything else I ate, because it's all logged there. It doesn't just go away because nobody saw it, but I feel like telling people about it makes me more accountable in some way.
I feel extremely disgusting right now. The mistake was buying that f****** diet food, or not even diet, but "pre-portioned." I freaking love cake, and I do not have the willpower to not eat a ton of it, even if it is individually wrapped. I'll never buy those again, that's for sure.
I've been obsessed with sugary food lately. Feeling down and sad. I know gaining weight back sure won't make me any happier, so tomorrow I'd better turn this cart around. I oinked down
almost 2K calories today, and now have a horrible headache. I wish I could control myself better. I usually am pretty good about it, but today and actually yesterday to an extent, I was just compelled to eat those m***** f***** hostess cakes. Pretty lame. I don't have a bf anymore, so I think that is a lot of it. It's been a very sad month, and I am amazed I lost 8 lbs, but I can't let being a little lonely ruin my progress.
Okay, enough whining. I'm not writing this solely to whine, really. I just wanted people to know that people fall off the wagon very often, and we have to get RIGHT back on, right? Tomorrow as soon as I wake up its YMCA, and I will burn some of these stupid mini cupcakes off of where they are now residing on my a$$.