The last two weeks have been incredibly taxing. I worked 30 hours, had classes - 3 of them, my books were late so I was behind on my reading, my son turned 21, I had to have a CAT scan to see why I am still having pain in my upper right abdomen area (if the cancer is back or not check), my daughter who has had cancer is not feeling well which always makes me highly concerned and I had to put my dog down yesterday. Overall, this has been a very trying time.

Everything is all blurring together and seeming like a lot. So last Friday, I go into the office to just fill out my time sheets and the phone rings. I am the only one in the office, so I go ahead and answer it. One of our clients has threatened suicide. I scramble trying to find his regular case worker, or her boss to no avail. I wind up heading out to find this guy - I do not know him from Adam by the way, find him and take him to the hospital for evaluation, he is fine, but mentally unstable. My ridiculous cell phone company does not have great coverage, and I keep having to run out into the night air of 12 degrees to check my voicemails to see if anyone is coming to relieve me, and leave this guy in the waiting room by himself. Finally someone does arrive, 4 hours later, and I am able to go home. The guy is fine, he was just looking for some attention.

My school books came in on Thursday, all of my assignments are due Saturday at midnight. Of course, I had to work Saturday also, but no where near as long. I managed to get my course work in, just a hair after midnight, so thankful for lenient professors. On Sunday, I slept in until 11, I was exhausted!

Then on Monday, I had a CAT scan, the contrast did not make me sick until Monday night on well on into Tuesday, where I had to miss two classes and work as well. Monday was also my son's 21st birthday, what a milestone. He is a good young man.

Then on Wednesday, I took my daughter for her bi-monthly clinic visit to get her blood checked after her battle with leukemia. She has been off treatment for two years. She has been sick for about a week. They drew labs and are concerned as to what is making her sick, because she has had both the H1N1 shot and the regular flu shot. We are nervous. Her labs came back looking good, but that isn't a real consolation at this point because when she was first diagnosed, her labs were fine then too. So we wait a week, and if she is not better, then we will have do a spinal tap on her and draw some fluids to see if there are cancer cells in her spinal fluid.

Thursday was the deal breaker for me as I woke up and my dog, Jack could hardly breathe. He was gasping for air. I knew it was time to put him down. I miss my golden shadow following me around, but know that he is not suffering anymore.

To top it off, I went to work today, picked up the client I am working with, took him to the doctor, then to the cemetery to pay respects to his mother, and finally to the pharmacy to pick up his medication. Somewhere between dropping off his prescriptions and getting back into my car, he poops his pants. He sits in my van and soils my seat! ARGHHH!!!!!!

My friends, Ben and Jerry visited last night and offered some solace, and I accepted without guilt. Now it is off to do my school work, it is piling up.