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Friday, February 05, 2010
blah today. Not sure what is going on. Did figure out something new today!! I wear my HRM every morning to see what my calorie burn is and my goal each morning is to burn 500 calories. I of course never get there. Well this morning I was feeling a bit ambitious and have been trying to get my miles up so I was able to up the speed to 5.8 MPH which for me is good. Well I run along for 22 minutes at that pace and then do my cool down...when I look at my HRM to see my cal burn I am at 410!!! I burned 425 yesterday and that was at 5.4 MPH for 20 mins...WHAT THE HELL!?!?!? AAAHHHH, an epiphany I am in the anerobic stage and at 99% of my max HR, so while I am still burning calories I am not burning as many as if I were at 75%. I am building my lungs up, which is great but I wan the calories gone first so that I am not fat anymore!!!!!!! So tomorrow I dial down the speed and dial up the calories?!?!
I don't know what is going on. I am kind of down, but not for any particular reason. My children are wonderful, work is really fun, I really do love working with kids and books, hence the middle school librarian. Financially things are very positive for us, although DH, who is a principal is negotiating for his salary next week, could not end up getting a raise, but we both have jobs and money in the bank. I just feel kind of blah. I want to sleep, all I think about is food and then that makes me think about exercise because I just want the weight to fall off and it isn't happening.
Well I guess that is the extent of my pity party for today, although I am not sure that I even have anything to pity myself for! Isn't that interesting.
Well I am off to work.