I hadn't realized it, but a monster had taken over my body. My thinner, inner self had been consumed by a fat monster. I guess it came on slowly, perhaps as some parasite that came into my body in the form of refined sugar, grew with saturated fat and eventually took over. And I let it!!! How could that be, it wasn't a friend, it wasn't healthy, and it made me irritable. I tried to get rid of the monster, but grew weak while dieting and the monsters appetite was HUGE. Searching the spark website, reading articles, getting support, tracking what I ate AND exercise is defeating that fat monster--whoo hoo!