Thursday, February 04, 2010
After 3 bad days of evening binges (YES, I binged yesterday after blogging about how crappy that made me feel) I finally have success tonight. All evening I kept thinking if I can just hang on until about 8:30, then I can go sit and blog and state that I had a successful day and go right to bed (I am an early riser). Well, I did it! No evening time binges. Ate very healthy all day.
One thought that always rolled through my head as I was losing my 50 lbs was that if I take it one day at a time and succeed, then pretty soon those days turn into weeks, the weeks into months, and WAHLAH!!! 50 lbs are gone. That's advice I have given out to so many people who have asked.
Well, today I realized that the reverse of that is also true. If I let 1 bad day of eating and no exercise turn into 2 or 3 bad days, then pretty soon those bad days turn into bad weeks, which turn into bad months and WAHLAH! Here I am at 200+ lbs again. I cannot let that happen. TIme goes by so fast, whether I lose weight or gain weight.
I am happy losing weight. As I lost this 50 lbs I never "really" felt deprived of anything. I was able to find suitable substitutes for my cravings. I ate on a schedule where I never felt hungry... the foods I did eat filled me up and satisfied me. I don't need to go back to evening time binges... I am fine and happy eating the way I have been for the past 5 months.
And today was even a stressful day for me. My mother's nursing home did something yesterday (that I just found out about today) that put her life in serious jeopardy. I am normally a very calm, even tempered person, but I lit into her nursing home today. It was totally out of my comfort zone, but I did it!
There are some big changes going on at my work which is totally making me anxious, but I did not turn to food for comfort today.
Re-reading all of the responses to yesterday's blog helped me so much. I read each of them over and over. I thank every one of you for responding. Also, thank you to those who wrote comments on my page. Having this community just means so much to me. The support is just amazing. Especially the person who I don't know (sorry) who left a comment on SparkPage:
You always had it...You always had the power....The real secret in within you."
~~~~~~~~~from the Good Witch in the Wizard of OZ~~~~~~~~~~
That quote brought tears to my eyes. I heard it on Oprah many years ago, but hearing it again it just rang loud and strong and true.
It also helped today having my hubby home. He is a nurse who works rotating shifts and between that and running the "rat race" trying to get the kids everywhere they need to be, it seems like we hardly every have a nice evening together. It was nice to be able to spend time talking with him this evening about my Mom and work, etc... He is the BEST!
Let's make it another successful day tomorrow!!!