Thursday, January 28, 2010
My mom is nearing the end of a long, mean disease. She's at end-stage Parkinson's, and she is now under the care of Hospice at the nursing home where she resides. She lives about an hour from me, so every Saturday I go see her. I try to get there at lunch time so I can feed her, but she doesn't always eat. Last Saturday the only thing she wanted was chocolate ice cream.
My Mom is a wonderful Christian lady, and I know she will be shedding her stiff, twisted body for a new one. She'll be running and laughing in Heaven. Part of me wants her to go soon, and the other part of me doesn't want her to go at all.
So how does this relate to eating? I've been stuffing myself lately, and I haven't felt like exercising. I've been worn out, too. (bad food, no exercise, long hours at work). Finally I realized that this was grief. Once I realized that, I decided that I'd better get back on the healthy living track.
I'm still eating a bit too much, but I'm back at the gym. Feel a lot better. The grief is still there, but I figure I'm better able to cope if I'm healthy. Don't know how long Mom will be with us - could be another 6 months or more. I want to be healthy enough to treasure every minute of it.