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Grieving and Eating

Thursday, January 28, 2010

My mom is nearing the end of a long, mean disease. She's at end-stage Parkinson's, and she is now under the care of Hospice at the nursing home where she resides. She lives about an hour from me, so every Saturday I go see her. I try to get there at lunch time so I can feed her, but she doesn't always eat. Last Saturday the only thing she wanted was chocolate ice cream.

My Mom is a wonderful Christian lady, and I know she will be shedding her stiff, twisted body for a new one. She'll be running and laughing in Heaven. Part of me wants her to go soon, and the other part of me doesn't want her to go at all.

So how does this relate to eating? I've been stuffing myself lately, and I haven't felt like exercising. I've been worn out, too. (bad food, no exercise, long hours at work). Finally I realized that this was grief. Once I realized that, I decided that I'd better get back on the healthy living track.

I'm still eating a bit too much, but I'm back at the gym. Feel a lot better. The grief is still there, but I figure I'm better able to cope if I'm healthy. Don't know how long Mom will be with us - could be another 6 months or more. I want to be healthy enough to treasure every minute of it.
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  • v RUTHXG
    Thanks so much for stopping by my blog, Joyce. I'm sorry for the loss of your mom in the spring--almost exactly one month after my dad died. May you continue to sense God's comfort & nearness.

    Yes, it really is hard to stay--or get back--on track in the midst of these losses. Slowly but surely we will, though!

    Between going to counseling, helping my daughter prepare to move to Colombia for a teaching job (she leaves Friday!), cleaning/organizing, & switching to more economical phone/Internet, I have had a hard time keeping up with my 40-hours-a-week job, let alone exercise. But soon it will all stabilize & exercise can be a high priority again. At least I haven't been gaining weight.

    Hugs & blessings to you.
    2167 days ago
  • v FATBOTTOMGIRL81
    I'm glad Grandma got to eat lots of ice cream before she passed. I bet she's playing basketball in heaven, and I am absolutely SURE that there are no dishes to wash, because she hates that. I know she's laughing at death. Someone told me that 1000 years here = 1 day in heaven, and if that's true, she'll be seeing us later this afternoon. emoticon
    2202 days ago
  • v WANNABTHIN2010
    SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOU MOM. YEAH YOU NEED TO STAY ON THE HEALTHY TRACK SO YOU CAN GO VISIT HER. YES SHE WILL BE IN A GOOD PLACE. SHE WONT HAVE ANY MORE PAIN. TAKE CARE OF YOUR SELF.
    2340 days ago
  • v SARILLAMILLAH
    To me that's one of the hardest things to cope with; the loss of someone you love. But you seem to be dealing with it better than most. Its great that you go to the gym, hopefully it gets your mind off things and that it gives you some YOU-time. As for your mis fortune, God has great things panned for her up there, and that's better than what most people have instore.
    2340 days ago
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