Thursday, January 28, 2010
What a turnabout--I was always running from the camera or erasing photos my husband took. Hiding behind family members for photos and now--I just got off the phone with my sister (a new sparkster) and we laughed so hard saying let's find out "porkiest fat " photo and post it! let's see who has the worse one (She is DreamofRussia) ..haha--I went through my husband's laptop (he is the keeper of the photos) and found some of me..it's like I am looking for the first time. I'm not looking with disgust (like I use to) I am using eyes of compassion and 'matter of fact eyes.' I am able to because of Sparkpeople! I am able to BELIEVE my life is changing because I am following the program and feeling momentum.
For the first time in my life I feel completely committed and believe I can do it--most importantly, I believe I am worth it.
I just relaized two days ago that I have held a belief that I didn't deserve to be thin. That it was just my lot in life to be "chunky" so I worked at accepting it.
I deserve to be a healthy weight. I deserve to be athletic! everyone does!
I'm loving this journey!
I keep my eye on the prize--being a before and after covergirl :)