Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I had a big binge yesterday. It was a terrible day at work, and I felt like I was going to blow my top. So I ate all the things I've been trying to avoid for the past year, including Kentucky Fried Chicken. That's about as far from my food plan as any meal could possibly be!
I did feel calmer afterward! But at a cost.
Today I made up my mind that yesterday was NOT going to set a precedent and get me onto a downward spiral. I ate in a healthy way today, though I did eat a bag of Doritos. But that was so minor, compared to yesterday!
I was feeling some remorse today and worried that I'm going to get off-track, gain back all the weight I've lost, and end up an out-of-shape wreck, like I was before. Then I realized that, just like when I quit drinking, I only have to think about this one day at a time.
I did well today; I'll try to do that again tomorrow. I don't have to feel the whole weight (so to speak!) of worrying about all the years ahead of me and whether I can possibly carry this off. I just have to do it for the next 24 hours, or the next hour.