Sunday, January 24, 2010
Today it hit me. I'm at another one of those crossroads life tosses into the path. I've realized that I've settled into a pattern that gets me from one day to the next but really isn't much of a life. I work, I meet my responsibilities, I try not to gain weight. My world has become very narrow.
When did this happen? How did I get into this box? Perhaps a better question would be, how do I get out? I listen to friends talking about trips they've taken....trips, btw, that I'm NOT taking. When did that dream get sidelined? I'm told that I have some writing ability and I've even written a children's book and other works....but I'm not submitting them for publication. When did that dream get sidelined? The list of dreams deferred is not a pretty sight. The sidelines of my life have become quite crowded. The playing field? Not so much.
What am I waiting for? Am I content to simply age day by day and then look back and wonder what happened? No, but nonetheless, that's the road I find myself traveling. How far back was it that I made that wrong turn? When did I turn off the GPS and get lost? Sigh. I hope that there is a less-traveled side road up ahead that might lead me home.
Searching for that road.....