It's not going so good!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Why does this always happen? I am going along and eating good and "life" happens and i end up going off and messing up. Not for one meal, one day or one week but until I feel like getting back on.

I feel like such a failure right now. I am sitting here with a stomach ache from all the chocolate that I have eaten today. Last night I woke up with a stomach ache and thought I was going to throw up, probably from the cookies and girl scout cookies that I ate for dinner.

I have been eating out almost every meal this weekend and definitely not making good choices. Macaroni grill pasta and bread, Popeyes chicken, cheese cake....why am i doing this to myself. Why can't I understand that I can not eat this food.

It is like drugs to a drug addict. Once I start I can not stop. Once I give in and Cheat or fall off the wagon I can not get back on the wagon of eating right. I need to "detox" once and for all and not allow myself to cheat. It maybe hard and I may be a B!@$& during that time.....but in order to get where I want and to feel good about myself I need to do it! I need to attend "AA" in the form of exercise everyday and make sure I am living the life I want to lead....Strong and healthy not fat and with a stomach ache all the time from the nasty foods that I am putting in my body.

I need a "sponsor" (someone who has been there done it, recovered and living and eating healthy) anyone out there willing to be it?

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    I am the same way. I managed to lose 45 on WW a couple years ago after my fourth baby was born, then some major things happened in my family and I turned to food. I just started WW, on my own, almost six weeks ago and have lost 17 pounds so far. For me, I have adjusted the program to work for me which means having one day a week where I eat anything, and everything, I want. I usually don't feel great that night, but I can tell you that I have no problem waiting a week for that "bad" day again. I even think of what I haven't had in a long time that I really want, and I make sure I have it on the bad day. Friday is my bad day and it has really worked for me. I have yet to start exercising again, but I will eventually work that in to my routine and I know that will make me feel even better. Do not feel bad or guilty, all you can do is the best you can do. I need to accept that I will not weigh what I weighed 20 yrs ago when I first met my husband and before having kids, but I will be within 10 pounds of that, like I was a year and a half ago, ugh!! Keep on keepin' on, you're worth it and you can do it. Good luck.
    2861 days ago
    So, yours was cookies, mine was Ho-ho's! Someone brought 'em for the kids, I ate 'em for some reason,the kids never even saw them,there were six.I've never had a Ho-ho before. For me, the most logical, comforting, realistic thing about this whole "mission" that we're on, is that every day, EVERY SINGLE DAY, we can make it right. Be kind to yourself. So, you ate too much chocolate and over-ate this weekend. This is a new moment. Set yourself straight, stop feeling bad for yourself, do it right. Let's say, you eat 5 times a day for a week. That's 35 meals in all. You mess up 5 of them- that's 30 meals you did right.Not so bad.You don't need a sponsor except for yourself. I'm the biggest choco-holic I know. I let myself have ice cream with my kids every Saturday nite. Sometimes it goes right into Sunday! Somethimes it doesn't. The bottom line is, I'm eating good foods, I'm moving this body, and I'm feeling good.Think about how bad you want a change, get mad, and do it.And when you think that you're the only one, find one of us. Mary
    2862 days ago
    I and MANY of us are TOTAL addicts! Sugar and refined carbs act that way for many!

    Clear the decks, pull the plug on all refined carbs...get 'em outta the house!

    Baby steps, one foot ahead of the other

    You can DO IT! :-)

    2862 days ago
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