when i was writing my status this morning i didnīt think it would start me thinking about myself and the past and about something a goodfriend of me once said to me.

first to the thing my friend once said to me over her false preconceptions she had carried around with her for nearly two years when we first met.one day when i was 26 my nephew and nieces came to visit and i was playing with them on the village green.my niece wanted to get in the local gym team so i was teaching her and showing her a few things.cart wheels,handstand,backflips and the splits(yes at 26 and weighing 282lbs i could still do the splits.)my friend lisa was looking out of her kitchen window and couldnīt believe her eyes what she saw.that night when we were out on a girls night out she brought up the subject and appologised to me.i said what for.she said for misjudgeing me and just seeing my weight and not what is behind it.she had only been my friend for just under 2 years so didnīt know anything of how sporty and everything i used to be and had just assumed i didnīt do any kind of sport because of my size.we both found out that night how much we both love dancing but have never asked the other to go dancing, she because she thought i couldnīt and i havenīt asked her because i thought she had no interest.so infact we had both misjudged one another.after the night we started going regularly to a disco(this was before i became muslim)i find it is also true that lot of people would see big people and just assume they are lasy etc,etc when most would probably be fitter than alot of thin people i know.

anyway onto my own conceptions.here was i being pleased that there was only two of the exerises on the billy banks ab boot camp that i couldnīt do propably(the one when you lie on your back and lift your feet a bit off the floor and then take it in turns cycling your legs by bringing your knee to your stomach and alternating legs making sure your heels donīt touch the floor)i have forgotten the other one because the exercise i mentioned bothered me so much that i couldnīt do it.then i thought of what my friend had said and then thought back to when i was younger and when sport had been the be all and end all.you wouldnīt believe it to see me now.

i was captain of the school gymnastic,football and hockey team.i did the long jump and high jump not only for the school,but for the county and for north wales when i was younger.i was a member of a running team and in a dancing troup for years where we won lots of medals and championships.we even won the championship 4 times for u.k and one time the european champion ships.when i was older and living in london i was even in a womens hockey team.and here i am now years later no longer able to do the splits and being over the moon at nearly finishing an exercise video that years ago i would have done as part of my warm up or cool down from the actual exercise.

where has the years gone ?where has that girl gone?more importantly will she ever come back?stayed tuned to get the answer to the last question but i can tell you this for a statement of fact i will manage to finish that video the whole way through and i will do my best to be able to do it by the end of this month.woo.hoo.