What to do, Where to start, Anyone?

Friday, January 15, 2010

So here i am today. It has been a rough couple of days. I missed a workout and have not been eating any better than before. I did start reading the spark and i am really starting to feel like i can do this.

It kind of makes me sad a little bit as I read the book I realize a few things. 1) I am not so sure of what my ah-ha moment is. Do I really have that one thing that really drives me to do this? And if I don't is it still possible? Can I do this on my own?

I know I have the support of the spark website but is it truly enough for me?

I sat down and was trying to figure out what my goals would be as per chapter 2, and they just seemed kind of superficial to me. Things like i want to lose weight so that i can be truly happy and maybe find the love of my life(tried once but that didnt work well). But then i have parts in there too that i want to be healthier so that i can do things with my kids. I want to be able to run and play with them and not be tired after 2 minutes.

I look at some of the people in my life and they kind of drive me nuts with all the Oh I'm so fat and i need to lose weight and they are all of 130 or 150lbs and here i am weighing in at 205 and really feeling like a whale and they have the nerve to tell me I I'm not fat didn't they just say the were and how much lighter than me.

Ok so I know this is all over the place and kind of whinny but i think i needed to vent and maybe have someone hear this and not judge me.

I really want to make my life better not just for myself but for my kids as well but i need help.

Just a few of my thought today
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    you have been given some awesome advice!!!
    2909 days ago
    NO judgement at all. I completely understand your whole entry. emoticon
    2927 days ago
    Oh, I so know how you feel. I lost about 65 pounds in 2007. Then spent 2008, yes, practically the whole year, waiting for "the moment" to strike me again. I even gained a little back, which totally destroyed me. I need to lose about 40 more pounds but it took a very long time to get my crap together and start over.

    I plateaued in early 2008 and just couldn't get the drive to keep going. I sorta gave up. But, with the help of knowing there are people out there travelling the same journey and realizing that I am truly a happier person when I am in control of my eating, and my life, I started again about 10 days ago.

    So, here we are miles apart and perfect strangers, with so very much in common. Let's do it! Every day doesn't have to be perfect. We just have to do the best we can to make ourselves truly happy (and healthy) each day. If you don't do what you intended to do one day, do it the next. You are SOOOOO worth it!!!!!! emoticon
    2928 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/15/2010 5:49:08 PM
    Wow, I wish SKYWATCHERRS wrote this on my blog. She gave very good advice. I started around Thanksgiving time just logging my food to see where I was nutritionally. On January 1st, I started really trying to lose weight and exercising. It is very overwhelming.

    One thing that I struggle with is keeping my lunches fresh and not getting bored. To help with this, I made a couple of soups that I found on the website and put them into individual containers and froze them. On mornings when I am dragging or running late, I can take one out of the freezer and part of my lunch is made.

    The exercise videos are helpful. There are ones for 5 minutes on up which means you can fit them into your schedule as time permits. I also have Leslie Sansone walk at home DVDs that I use when I can't walk outside or need to be home to keep an eye on the kids. Sometimes they even join me.

    I wish you the best of luck. I think after reading the first few chapters of "The Spark" I have realized that there isn't a magic formula that applies to all. We each need to figure out what works for us and gives us that "Spark" to lose weight.
    2928 days ago
  • PEGGO45
    Keep on reading the book... you may get your ah ha moment. Sometimes like you said it's all over the place trying to nail down goals and figure out "specifically" what you desire. But the more specific the goals are the more focused you can be. Very small and simple... like I'll do a streak of drinking 8 glasses of water a day. Or I'll excercise every day even if it's just for 10 minutes. 10 minutes a day adds up to 70 per week. The key is chop it into chunks and small reachable goals and your confindence will build and you can then see the light start to go on. Now I'm no pro at this.... believe me it's so much easier said than done. I'm behind on the big picture, but I'm kinda starting over by reading the book. Last night I was like oh yea... the streaks... Oh yea the constant support... oh yea the vision... oh yea... instead of Ah-ha for me.
    2928 days ago
    This kind of journey is overwhelming at first. There's so much to be aware of and you feel like you have to change everything all at once, you feel like you have to do it all perfectly from the beginning or else you're a failure and it won't work.

    Here's the thing. If you take it step by step, one habit or two at at time, you will change your life. You will accomplish your goal - not just in weight loss, but any goal in life.

    Have you set up your calorie range yet? Spark will literally tell you how many calories to eat and how much exercise you need to do. If you go to MY TOOLS, START, and then MY GOALS on the lower left side of the START page, clicking it will bring up several fields that you need to populate as accurately as possible. With this information, Spark will tell you how much to eat in order to lose weight.

    The other side of that is, you have to do your part. Try setting some small goals like eating 5 servings of fruit/veggies a day and drinking 64oz of water a day. Just two habits. Once those become habits, you can pick two more things, like exercising 4 days a week or doing away with processed food.

    Don't try to change it all at once. It's too much too fast.

    The other thing I wanted to say was, don't think that losing weight is going to instantly make you happy or that it will instantly bring you the love of your life. It won't. It will make you healthier, it can help you have more confidence in yourself so you can go after other goals in life, but losing body fat is not a magic bullet that instantly makes your life perfect. Finding someone to love and spend your life with depends on a lot of other things, not your body fat composition. Being happy starts right now, before you lose even one pound. You make up your mind to be happy, and you go after the things that make you happy.

    Spark is here to support and help you, but it's you who has to commit to this and make the steps, stick with the program.

    Best wishes!
    2928 days ago
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