Thursday, January 14, 2010
Feeling a little pathetic here :( I have sooo neglected SP for a long time. And very discouraged that I have let myself gain all the weight back. My husband is pretty much begging me to start eating healthier with him and all I am thinking is, how will I live without my JUNK FOOD that I have grown to love again? The only thing that makes me feel better after a stressful day at work is a big bag of popcorn and a Coke. Looking back at the progress that I have made, made me realize that I can do this again. We can both do this again. It will be hard, but I have to do it, for him at least.
How can I get back to the way I was before? Wow, I was looking back at my pictures of when I was 200 pounds and I looked pretty Darn good. So that is a little under 30 pounds that I have to lose. If I can't do it for myself, I at least need to do it to support my husband. He is getting ready to take his Level 2 fire fighting class and he has to be in Tip Top condition....
So, I need some advice, how do I start this again?? I mean, I KNOW what to do physically, but MENTALLY...how do I do this??
Going to make a small, little goal for myself. Starting off small counts, right??
1. No POP at work!! My work makes it sooo convient for me to grab a Coke or Mt. Dew. 50cents for a can. I drink at least 2!
Grrr. I can't think of anything else that I can commit to right now. That is sad :( Honestly, besides the occasional popcorn and eating out, I really don't eat THAT bad. I need to start exercising, but cant find the time or energy to do it.
2. Start tracking my calories again. Obviously, I am thinking that I am eating okay, but maybe, JUST MAYBE...I'm not :P...MAYBE I am lying to make myself feel better :PPPPPP
Help me out my friends!!! This was very therapeutic to me, but still need some help :)