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Thursday, January 14, 2010

i am my own worst enemy. i am so good at manipulating myself and saying tomorrow will be different when it never is.i cant get a grip and it is consuming my brain and i am terrified. has anyone felt this way before?i want to start over but i cant believe myself!! i am trying to tell myself tomorrow i will start over. i am joining a 60 day fitness challenge so please pray for me. i am down on myself
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SMBMEANOR 1/14/2010 3:54PM

  It's almost like I'm the one that wrote this blog. I know exactly how you feel. I always think to myself, "Yeah tomorrow will be different. I will start over tomorrow and from then on out everything will be better." But it rarely happens that way. I think it's just because it's so hard to change. It's easy to keep things the way they are now. Especially when you don't have any support. But I promise if you believe in yourself and you find some support, things DO get better and things DO change.

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CRISTYKG 1/14/2010 2:40PM

    Dont wait until tomorrow. That usually leads me to a bad night if I do that. Go somewhere quiet, close your eyes and relax. Then you can take a few minutes to focus on your goals today!

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MYREALANA 1/14/2010 12:23PM

    Never give up!
Never Surrender!

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MONKEYELIZA 1/14/2010 12:19PM

    I'm having this same problem. I thought I had blown my whole week when I realized I have gone 7 days with no workout or walking. Instead of worrying about it... I just did some old workouts from school (jumping jacks, windmills, etc). And I jogged in place for 3 minutes. That was almost twenty mintues of workout... and it was easy. And it was better than nothing.

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KATIEWHOMPUS 1/14/2010 12:15PM

    *hugs*
Tell yourself you are starting over right now and let the past go. You don't have to be perfect to make progress and don't let yourself get defeated.

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AVEARE 1/14/2010 12:01PM

    You can do this! You have asserted control over your health and your life! Setbacks suck...they make us feel so down on ourselves but you are a strong person and when you set your mind to it, you will continue to achieve your goals (even with the occasional setback!). emoticon

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ABOWIE1683 1/14/2010 11:56AM

  The only way I ever break this vicious cycle is to tell myself, "It stops now." I may have a horrible breakfast or a pastry in the office kitchen, but then I say, "ENOUGH!" and I start over for the day. Keep tracking everything but remember. You are only human. Also, if you can't get your head in the game there may be something else your brain is trying to work though psychologically. Take a break and ask yourself why you are struggling. Good luck and I'm here for you if you need to vent. emoticon

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JIMDAB 1/14/2010 11:55AM

    Awareness is the first step on the road to rehabilitation--sounds corny but it's true. What makes us human is our awareness and our ability to do the problem-solving it takes to change.

Take charge and lose the fear, girl.
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Edit:

Hey I just took a look at your Spark page and see that I am preaching to the choir. You have made some awesome changes--you got what it takes to do this.
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Comment edited on: 1/14/2010 11:58:19 AM

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NEEDSTHEBEACH 1/14/2010 11:54AM

    Don't wait until tomorrow to get back on the wagon, do it right after you fall off! Giving yourself a starting place in the future is giving you a chance to be "bad" for a few more hours, days, weeks, etc. Carpe Diem right this minute!

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NKHARRIS329 1/14/2010 11:50AM

    Stop telling yourself you are starting over tomorrow. Make a commitment right now to make the changes you need to make.

Good Luck!

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