Tired of the pain.......
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I am going to do this today.....no eating-emotionally! I am so sick and tired of being FAT! I woke up several times in the night thinking about how I'm slowly killing myself with food. I went through some major crap last year and if I don't stop I'm afraid I'll be going through more...
I know I need to get rid of the weight because of my spinal disorder. I find myself walking a little hunched over these days, never even thought about it til I talked to a dear spark sister the other day and I was telling her about an aquaintance with the same spinal disorder and how the poor woman couldn't even stand straight any more, completely bent over at the waist and she has to walk like that, and I am doing the same thing to myself by not getting into shape. Not to mention the constant pain I'm in, having to take up to 4 percocet a day for the pain, and why? Because I have this fat stomach and it needs to go!
I lost a total of 61 pounds last year after having the bowel resection done....I gained 34 of that back...I know I'm still down 27 pounds but 34 back on! What is wrong with me!
I made a good start today by tracking my breakfast, and I don't care how cold it is, I will go outside and take some kind of walk...even if it's up and down the driveway!
I've got to change my ways or I won't be around to see my Grand-Daughter grow-up
I need to get a handle on the emotional eating.
I need to do this for ME.