gotta do it!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I have been off spark for awhile. In fact, I think I could say my spark burned out. I had several bouts of bronchitis and pneumonia last year. I kept working out as soon as I felt well enough. I even had a trainer. However, the trainer just had a one plan fits all mentality. I am rather competitive so if he put it out there, I did it. Well, I ended up with plantar fasciatis which is the tendon from the heel along to the arch of the foot gets inflamed and very painful. I kept trying to go on when possible but the pain has really been stopping me from it. So, I quit working out. COMPLETELY! Not a good thing for me because I have always really enjoyed exercising. 2 weeks ago, I rejoined the Y and started zumba again. I love zumba because it is so much fun and you get a great workout without realizing it. But, it hurts my feet a lot. I did not go at all last week due to the weather and to let my feet relax a bit. I plan on going tonight though. Here is my dilemma. Last year due to the illness, the feet and depression and stress, I managed to pack on 40 lbs on my already overweight body. I am now in the obese category. I never thought I would be there. I am also now over 200 lbs. I weighed 199 on the night I delivered each of my kids! There is no baby this time! I remember thinking I was so huge! Now I really am. My company has started a biggest loser challenge. The winner takes a lot of money. I was very hesitant to sign up. Didn't really examine why until yesterday. I decided enough is enough. I contacted our rep for the program and while I was writing her it really hit me. As I was typing, the tears started to flow. I was afraid to start because I have failed so many times and now I walk around and everyone can see that I failed again. I hate failure! I want to win. So, you can't know where you are going if you don't know where you are. So, I am no longer hiding and I am going to do what needs to be done to get to my goals both physical and personal. I am back in the game and ready to play. This is the last time I am going to fail! There may be setbacks but I can do this!