Saturday, January 09, 2010
I was on the right path. I had lost seven pounds, was attending Grief Share regularly and beginning to exercise. Then the day after Christmas my husband said we needed to talk. He was concerned about the amount of time I was spending on the computer. And why was I exercising now? Was I trying to lose weight so I would be attractive to someone I had met on line? I couldn't believe my ears when he said I looked just fine the way I was, the way I had been for years. I must be trying to improve myself for someone new.
I felt like giving up and for the last few weeks I did. I stopped getting on the computer, stopped exercising, stopped drinking water and went back to Diet Dr. Pepper, stopped tracking my food. Well that program worked for me. I succeeded in regaining five of the seven pounds I was so proud of losing.
Then I received my copy of The Spark in the mail. I wasn't on the computer. I was just sitting there on the couch in the livingroom. I opened it and began to read. My spark came alive again. I realized that my husband was right. I was trying to improve myself for someone new I had met online---ME! So I'm back and here I go all over again. I AM going to improve myself, I AM going to learn the right kinds of foods to eat and eat them! I Am going to stop being the fat one in a skinny family! And I'm doing it FOR ME. I've spent my life doing for and encouraging others and now I'm going to do something right for me.