80,000-99,999 SparkPoints 81,904

getting back into a routine

Thursday, January 07, 2010

So on Monday I started running again. As much as it feels good to be exercising, my heart just isn't into running like it was earlier. I know that in time, that will come back. I just found myself feeling empty. Yesterday, near the end of my 5 mile run, I nearly broke into tears. I'm sure it's just a mixture of hormones and emotions right now but since my treadmill died, I've been working out a a gym and the LAST thing I want to do is start crying in front of a ton of people! I'm just not sure how I'm supposed to be feeling right now, and part of me really just wants to be back to normal. And yet, part of me is afraid that "normal" is like leaving little Jonah behind. I really hope I can start to make sense of all this soon.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Sandy, just go with the flow hun, if you feel sad - cry, if you feel a a bit better - smile, don't feel bad about anything. I can not begin to know how you are feeling but i really know that you are going to be okay. You will never leave Jonah behind - he is in your heart and can never be forgotten.

    Message me if i can do anything

    **BIG HUGS**

    Amy x
    2992 days ago
    Be gentle with yourself. What you've been through is not easy, and it takes time to recover, both physically and emotionally. It's okay to grieve AND to do your normal activities - doing one does not mean you have abandoned the other.

    2993 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.