Thursday, January 07, 2010
So on Monday I started running again. As much as it feels good to be exercising, my heart just isn't into running like it was earlier. I know that in time, that will come back. I just found myself feeling empty. Yesterday, near the end of my 5 mile run, I nearly broke into tears. I'm sure it's just a mixture of hormones and emotions right now but since my treadmill died, I've been working out a a gym and the LAST thing I want to do is start crying in front of a ton of people! I'm just not sure how I'm supposed to be feeling right now, and part of me really just wants to be back to normal. And yet, part of me is afraid that "normal" is like leaving little Jonah behind. I really hope I can start to make sense of all this soon.