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getting back into a routine

Thursday, January 07, 2010

So on Monday I started running again. As much as it feels good to be exercising, my heart just isn't into running like it was earlier. I know that in time, that will come back. I just found myself feeling empty. Yesterday, near the end of my 5 mile run, I nearly broke into tears. I'm sure it's just a mixture of hormones and emotions right now but since my treadmill died, I've been working out a a gym and the LAST thing I want to do is start crying in front of a ton of people! I'm just not sure how I'm supposed to be feeling right now, and part of me really just wants to be back to normal. And yet, part of me is afraid that "normal" is like leaving little Jonah behind. I really hope I can start to make sense of all this soon.

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FUN-BEING-MUM 1/8/2010 12:44PM

    Sandy, just go with the flow hun, if you feel sad - cry, if you feel a a bit better - smile, don't feel bad about anything. I can not begin to know how you are feeling but i really know that you are going to be okay. You will never leave Jonah behind - he is in your heart and can never be forgotten.

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CHAIMANN 1/7/2010 10:00PM

    Be gentle with yourself. What you've been through is not easy, and it takes time to recover, both physically and emotionally. It's okay to grieve AND to do your normal activities - doing one does not mean you have abandoned the other.


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