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I slipped - But I never lost my Spark

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

I'll try not to make this too long but I think its time to confess my sins!

I started slipping away at Halloween time. My school ended up getting very demanding and work even more demanding. The restaurant I work for - helped open - and have devoted my life to for an entire year is struggling to stay open. The stress of feeling like the success of the restaurant rests on my shoulders had me so stressed out. Everyday turned into me trying to think "what can we do better". These thoughts completely replaced my healthy habit thoughts. I was too exhausted after work and school to go work out, and I had spent all day cooking and it made me not want to cook at home.

Then the holidays hit. I lost my grandmother about 3 years ago. She is the reason im a chef today. She taught me how to cook and she inspired me to cook. After leaving her house after family events all that could be said was ''grandma is such an amazing cook''. Nobody had ever been highlighted as an ''amazing cook'' in my family aside from my grandmother - until me. Now IM the amazing cook. Since the holidays were the only times my grandma really cooked there are traditional recipes. Since my grandmother died - I felt obligated to not change the recipes. It would be a tease to say ''these are Minnies famous bacon buns..now with turkey bacon!" Now that im becoming a successful chef the pain of losing my grandma is becoming more real. I wanted my family to see me succeed but I always dreamed my grandma would be there when I opened my own restaurant. Now she wont be and these thoughts just were upsetting me more and more. Im proud to say I will be attempting to start my own catering business this year and I will most likely be calling it Minnie's after my grandmother. So hopefully getting over this obstacle and realizing why I was over-eating over the holidays will help me push forward. I want to start perfecting my recipes for my own business but im going to start getting myself healthy first. If I start working out and eating better then I wont be so compelled to try everything I make.

Im really going to need all my spark friends help to keep me on track. I gained about 6 lbs over the holidays which Im aware could be so much worse but it still upsets me alot. If anyones willing to be a texting buddy i definitely need someone to remind me all day to not give into picking at food and that once I get to my goal weight I will be a healthy chef..not the cliche fat chef.
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SENORAHACHE 3/31/2010 4:13PM

    I think Minnie's Catering has a great ring to it! Congrstulations on being named Done Girl of the Day!
~Annie

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MELRAE2 1/7/2010 10:36AM

    You can get back on track!! I have faith in you! emoticon

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ANGELAK85 1/7/2010 7:29AM

    Wow. I never knew this about your grandmother, I am so sorry. You are extremely strong to be able to admit all of this, and to face them. No matter how busy you are, you still want to think of yourself and take care of yourself. I will be more than happy to be your texting buddy :) . I did leave you a comment the other day asking if you had a personal email, that way we could become closer friends for this journey.

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SOPHIKKO 1/6/2010 10:42PM

    I love reading your updates and I am so glad that you posted one. This is a very open and honest blog and I have to say thank you for posting.

I can understand wanting to cook the traditional recipes, I think it is great that you are carrying on your Grandmother's traditions. Your family must be so thankful that you can continue with the family recipes. I find food and scent is such a memory inducer.. more than anything else.

You look great in your chef jacket. Don't worry too much about the 6 lbs - that can be undone just the way you did before. All I can suggest is continuing to make yourself active on Spark through blogging and the Spark Pages. Whenever I start to get off track I have to find time to put myself back in the Spark loop and then it gets addictive once again.

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