Tuesday, January 05, 2010
I am Determined to lose this extra weight that is holding me from so many things. Happiness is one of them because I don't feel good about myself physically or mentally. Looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. Not being able to be as active with my family because I don't have the energy due to being overweight. This past summer (7-31-2009) I lost my mother
. She had severe high blood pressure for many years and ended up with kidney failure and then a stroke that made her bed ridden for 2 1/2 months. Seeing her go through all that suffering and not being able to help her in any way was the most horrible experience. Now I start to seriously think about my health, thinking that I want to live much longer for my family and be there for them to share many special moments ahead of us. This is why I want to focus on myself and take care of me in order to take care of those I love. I think about my mom all the time and just wish she could still be here with us......miss her so deeply. My kids give me that strength to wake up each morning and keep going in life. But now, I am trying to find that strength "in me" to keep going at achieving my goal of losing these extra pounds. I am in much need of motivation and inspiration in order to stay focused and this is why I came back to SparkPeople to find that. I know there are many inspiring stories of success here and I look to them for inspiration and hoping I can use there stories of success as a way of knowing that I too can one day be one of those success stories.