My aunt gave my 11 year old son a Wii system for Christmas. In the initial set up, you get to design the characters to resemble you if you want. When he was setting up the my character, he chose auburn hair for me (I'm a redhead) and the eyes and the nose, mouth, etc.
Then he got to the page where you choose the body type and he chose a skinny one for me. I hugged him and said "Oh thank you honey! That was so sweet." and he said to me, "Why? That's what you look like, isn't it?"
WOW!!! What a compliment! I guess I never looked at it that way. I guess I have lately been feeling like a heavy person in a thinner person's body. I'm going to change that perception right now. I still, out of habit, do not glance in mirrors as I walk by them because for the past several years, I haven't liked what I saw. So, I haven't really taken a good look at myself, I just know when my clothing sizes drop down and am ecstatic about that, but I just realized that I'm still afraid to take a look.
I remember when I lost the first 20 pounds, I felt so much thinner because I was working out and could feel my muscles underneath the fat. But having 40 pounds to lose, sometimes it takes 15-20 pounds to lose before it actually shows to others. So, having lost 20 pounds, I felt great. That is until I went to a wedding and my sister took a lot of pictures of me and my husband and then sent me prints. I looked at the pictures and couldn't believe how heavy I still looked!! So I guess I just went back to thinking I felt thin, but I don't look thin.
Now, however, with 33 pounds gone & 8 left to go, I guess it finally shows. I just didn't realize it.
So....I now LOVE the Wii, hee hee hee, and, of course, SparkPeople.com because that is why I am 33 pounds lighter than I was last August. And the main reason I am almost there is my goal buddy 4A-HEALTHY-BMI because she challenged me to do this!!