What would it feel like to know that whatever I wanted to do, my body would respond? No matter what I tried, my body would go where I want it to, do what I ask of it?

I cannot raise both of my legs at the same time, from a lying position. They are too heavy for me. I have to use my hands to help move them. I am not even 38 years old. That is simply ridiculous. It is ridiculous that I have let myself get to weak and out of shape that I have no core strength, no basic strength left. I do not trust myself to jump off anything -- whether it's the tailgate of the truck, a small curb on the street, a stair, anything. I never know if my feet will be where they are supposed to be.

I wonder what it will be like to know that my body is strong and capable, and I can trust it to do what I ask. I can't wait to know hwat it feels like to push my body to its limits.