Friday, January 01, 2010
So it's 2010, remember when you where younger and watched the movie 2010. Good ole Hal. Hard to believe we are in that year.
I consider this the year of me. 10 is my luck number, I turn 40 in just a few short days and already I am making changes in my life. I am a little nervous, a little worried that I won't make it.
I have had asthma for a really long time, call that bad, but call this stupid I have been smoking since for just about as long as I have had asthma. I could never understand why I smoked and therefore couldn't come up with a reason to quit.
I finally went on a retreat, just a meditation retreat. I thought maybe it might help me relax a little, but little did I know that I would find out the real reason I smoke. Through reflection and some deep soul searching I discovered two things.
1) I smoke to supress emotions.
2) I smoke because I can.
On the first point. I realized everytime I was stressed, everytime I was sad, everytime things just didn't go perfect for me the first thought I had in my head was, "oh god I need a cigerette". None of the emotions went away after having a smoke, but it did give me the time to walk away and think about things and come up with solutions. So I did the exact thing I just removed the cigerette. So far so good.
On the second point. I realized all my life I had really bad allergies and other immune problems. I remember the first time I had a cigerette I thought I'd need to be taken to the hospital, but I was fine. One of the few "bad" things I could do that didn't send me to the emergency room. Well I am older now and the only health problem I seem to have is weight and extreme asthma. Both things I can control. And the first one starts with smoking, wieght comes next.
I turn 40 on the 10th (my lucky number) and I refuse to smoke at that age.
If you smoke and you are having a hard time quiting, look inside yourself, ask yourself why you smoke? You'll be surprised at the answers you get. You'll also have the ability to understand and combat with logic and reason those nasty cravings. Knowledge is the solution to most problems. Know why and you can find the solution.
Wishing all of you the very best in 2010. And to those that are quiting, between the cravings doesn't it feel good to breath, keep on pushing and keep on going. You can do it!