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NEW YEARS EVE!


Thursday, December 31, 2009

I have read some beautiful words in blogs this morning which lift my heart in so many ways. But when I awoke this morning my heart felt so heavy as my thoughts reflect on some of 2009 the tears still come so easily, I can't help but miss dear Uncle BJ such a wonderful many taken to a better life but leaves me so empty as I miss him daily. What a lucky girl to have been able to share him with his family for 33 years. Then there was the loss of my job which I actually loved doing, well not the job so much as the people I did it for, even though I felt I had no choice but to leave that pain remains. And then there of course comes to mind the fact of not speaking to my mother and sister for yet another year, though it is my choice to stay away and not put myself in a position to have to deal with them there is still that pain that remains at the end of yet another year, the pain of knowing someone doesn't care enough to have you in their life brings pain as well. There is pain in knowing I did not reach my goals this year in fact put them aside that pain brings guilt!
But then there is joy the joy of knowing my precious daughter is expecting our first grandbaby and yes we already know that it is a girl!! How exciting watching her transistion into motherhood and knowing she too will experience all that comes with giving a child a life. My biggest hope is that with the distance we can still be a huge part of her life. The joy of watching Lance and Maggie develope their new relationship and the hopes that one day they too will put themselves on course to a happy life if that is what is meant to be for them.
We have never celebrated NEW YEAR's EVE as a big event like some people do so staying home by ourselves is NO big deal we normally have one couple over do pizza and movies and watch the ball drop this year they are attending a basketball game so we will be watching movies alone, not the end of the world at least we will be home safe and not putting ourselves in harms way, our weather dictates that is important as well.
So today is a confusing day of sorts, mixed bag of emotions for sure but one thing I am eternally gratefull for is my wonderful group of friends who support, encourage and share my life here daily. I can't thank you enough for caring and sharing and I know that no matter what is going on in my life you are there waiting to share it with me. I have no doubts that our friendships will last a lifetime, that you don't point fingers at my failures, that you don't desert me when I need you most and that you just share your conditional love with me. Life without you would be so empty!!
My prayer is that 2010 brings you joy, health and happiness, along with my friendship!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/1/2010 3:32AM

    Cheryl, Thank you for being here for each of us this past year as we say goodbye to 2009 and hello 2010. Exciting things are going to be happening with and for all of us. Put the past behind you for those things you didn't accomplish and start a new spot for all the great things this new year will bring. May God continue to bless you and Rich as you embark on 2010 and your healthy journey!!
Blessings and hugs,
Helen

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KSNICKER 12/31/2009 11:44PM

    Cheryl - You know that we will be friends for life. It just has to be. lol And who would of thought that coming to Spark would have brought us all together. What a blessing you have been to me my friend. I feel the same as you.
So here's to another year of friendship... emoticon
Happy New Year!

Love and Hugs,

Kathy

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GHOSTFLAMES 12/31/2009 4:32PM

    CHERYL IT IS SO NICE TO SEE YOU BACK ON TRACK BLOGGING WAY TO END THE NEW YEAR. YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN THE CHEERLEADER CALLED BY TEAM MEMBERS AND I GIVE A BIG CHEER TO YOU MY FRIEND FOR LEADING US DAILY AND BEING THERE THRU THE GOOD THE BAD AND YES THE UGLY!LOL LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED AND LEARN FOR THE MISTAKES YOU ARE THE BEST AND I AM SO,SO GLAD I FOUND YOU AND CAN CALL YOU A FRIEND! emoticon SO THREE CHEERS FOR YOU CHERYL AND LOTS OF HUGS!
AS FOR YOU MOM AND SISTER SHAME ON THEM FOR NOT TRYING TO MEND FENCES AND MAYBE ONE DAY YOU WILL THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE.
WE WENT RIGHT WITH YOU THRU THE LOSS OF UNCLE BJ AND LAURIE WITH HER CANCER BECAUSE WE ARE FAMILY!YOU HURT WE HURT AND THAT MY FRIEND IS TRUE FRIENDSHIP.
SO HERE IS TO THE NEW YEAR AND YES WE ALL HAVE SLIPPED UP BUT HERE IS TO ALSO ENDING THE 2009 THE RIGHT WAY WITH A FRESH START.SEND ME YOUR DOLLAR NOW AND ALSO THOSE OLD VHS TAPES YOU PROMISED ME!LOL
TAKE CARE AND CUDDLE UP WITH RICH TONING AND DON'T FORGET THE KITTIES AND BRING IN THE NEW YEAR KNOWING YOU HAVE A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU RIGHT HERE HUGS,CHAR

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MARLA7 12/31/2009 3:48PM

    Cheryl - I feel the happiness coming from you and the excitement when you talk about your little unborn Granddaughter. Such Joy she'll bring to you! No doubt! Have fun buying little pink frilly things and spoiling her to pieces! You've brought much joy to my life as well. Always thinking of others... caring... sharing. I know you miss Uncle BJ... and I can't imagine the pain of your Mom and sister not speaking to you. But, you're doing the right thing for you by staying away. You still have Laurie, thank goodness! Enjoy your quiet New Year's Eve tonight with Rich! Cuddle up, watch a movie then watch the ball drop! Love ya, Marla

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MAURIZIA 12/31/2009 12:10PM

    Cheryl, right back at you, girl! Love you just as much...and thank you just as much! It is an honor to share this world with you!

Hugs...hugs...hugs!

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