Wednesday, December 30, 2009
It's been an incredibly rough couple of months. We lost two family members in November. My dad's brother died just four days before my dad's birthday, and then my mom's sister died just two days before Thanksgiving. My uncle died of cancer and my aunt died of complications from years of dealing with Multiple Sclerosis. So our holiday season didn't start off very well, needless to say.
We did get my husband's car replaced, but it took all the cash we had just for the down payment, and now we have payments that we really can't afford. It's not even an expensive car (it's 13 years old), it's just that we don't have ANYTHING extra in our budget to cover it. Thank goodness the bishopric of our church helped us with Christmas! Our kids wouldn't have gotten much of anything if it weren't for them. I can't even begin to express my gratitude for that.
Back in November I was diagnosed as suffering from Depression and Bipolar Disorder. I've suspected it for years, but without insurance I just wasn't able to get treatment. I had insurance for a brief time this Autumn and decided I'd better talk to my doctor about it, so he referred me to a mental health specialist. After seeing a counselor and a psychologist, the diagnosis was made. I was put on medication. Unfortunately, my insurance ended on December 1st, and I took the last of my pills two days ago. We've applied for AHCCCS but have yet to hear back. Hopefully I can get some type of coverage soon, but I'm not holding my breath. I was warned to not just stop taking the medication, as my symptoms can come back worse than ever (and they were VERY bad to begin with), but what can I do? I can't afford the $200 a month for the medication.
On the good news front, I did finally complete my Associate in Arts Degree and am now ready to move on to Northern Arizona University to work on my Bachelors in Biology. I also found out that I am only a year and a half away from my Bachelors, not two and a half to three years as I'd initially thought. And I'm getting a full ride, with a hefty amount of financial aid left over after expenses are paid. I should have the money next week. That will help us immensely, as I will find it hard to fit a job in considering I will have a four and a half our commute every day. I'm hoping to find some work on campus, even if it's only 10 hours a week. Every little bit helps.
Hopefully 2010 will shape up to be a better year than 2009. Needless to say, with everything going on the past few months, my weight loss and fitness goals have been all but forgotten. I'm hoping the beautiful environment around NAU will help to motivate me to get out there and do some more outdoor activities such as hiking or just walking in the woods. I think that will be my only New Year's resolution for now: to walk at least half an hour every day. Even that little bit will be an improvement, and it won't feel like I'm overloading myself or trying to do too much too fast.
Have a Happy New Year everyone!