Monday, December 28, 2009
It's early. I'm up. The day stands before me asking what I want from her. She wonders whether I'll choose to push through the massive and impossible number of "shoulds" on my to-do list and find balance between work and play. She wonders if I'll choose to spend her hours, minutes, and seconds in ways that advance my dreams or frustrate them, in ways that promote peace in my heart or drive it far away. She's on my side and she hopes I'll spend her wisely. She hopes I'll listen to God's voice in my heart about how much work is enough and how much is destructive. She wants good things for me. She knows that the good things are right there waiting to hop into open arms. She hopes I'll remember to spend some time with empty arms, to lay down the many projects stacked in them. You see, she keeps telling me that arms that are always full of busyness are arms that cannot be open to receive. I wish I knew her secret to balancing it all.
You see, I still have trouble letting "good enough" be good enough. Here's a shocker: Not everything needs to be done with excellence! Some things just need to be done! Good enough is good enough for many things. Excellence has been required of me my whole life and somewhere along the way I began to require excellence of myself, indiscriminately, in every area. (Talk about over-training!) The day came when I began to associate excellence with perfection. Now, THAT was a bad day. I've long since divorced perfectionism but that guy is annoyingly persistent. He still knocks on my door from time to time, asking to come back to me. Sometimes, in a moment of weakness, I let him move back in for awhile until I come to my senses again. Well, senses, here I come! Perfectionism, I've packed your bags....again. They're on the front lawn. Pick them up on your way out.
My gift to today will be to practice the law of "good enough". Today, I will remember that "good enough" is often an excellent choice.