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Being Wrong

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Normally being wrong is OK because at least your able to learn something from it......but this time,being wrong has scared me,and will make me a wreck for a while.

I was told by my Son Michael,he'd be shipping out to Iraq?Apthganastan? Jan.2010.I found out last night that althought the date for deployment is right,he will not spend the week home.He will be leaving Tuesday 12/29. Because he's been in the Navy over 9 years its not required of him to help load the carrier but his thought process's are " Im not leaving everyone else to do it"-Greenhorns? for lack of not knowing the correct word--So he will leave Tuesday.I never go to the base to watch any of my lids deploy.I stay home,hug them and cry for days. My husband is the one who watches them leave,Im the one who watches them come home,and what a sight that is.When the buses came around the corner with Daniel on them,it was unbielevable! and also Tommy.But I have to say watching a carrier 5 times as big as a football field come around the corner with all the sailors saluting is the most unbelievable,breath taking experince I ve had ( its trying to find your loved one after they disembark thats nerve racking,thousands of men and women!

My Husband like I said will go,which will put a strain on me as far as taking care of John by myself 7p-7a.John is only 140 #'s but is dead weight so Ill need to watch my back!.It will be tiring,stressful,and scary.My Daughter lives across the street so can help me transfer but thats about it. She's scared to learn how to feed John with the tube.The state allows me Nurses at night so we can sleep,but because John is so complex,they won't allow nurses aid.I had thought of asking for one during a few hours during the day but they won't allow it.I will have my Son Daniel,his wife to stop in,but everyone is too scared to learn how to care for John,which I understand.

So in a few days I may be on the computer yelling "help!!!" I need support,both with Michael and John!
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    Oh, Kathleen.....I feel for ya!!! This is a difficult time.........will keep them in my prayers....and you too!

    3005 days ago
    Sending hugs and strength your way! I'm sorry you can't get more help! Just be careful not to hurt yourself!

    3006 days ago
    Kathleen- That really sucks that Michael will not be home that week before he gets deployed, that must really add to your anxiety.

    I wish I lived closer, and could help you out with John (the lifting I couldn't do) but everything else I have done (or don't mind learning) when I worked at the Easter Seal camp. Tube feeding I always found intimidating, especially on the campers, who could still choke on their own saliva, or with the feeds

    Sending hugs, and best wishes that Michael returns safely, and that you are able to manage while your husband is away seeing him off. Hope John is starting to feel better
    3006 days ago
    Sending prays for the strength you need!! You will be fine with the Lord on your side!!!

    3006 days ago
  • RENA1965
    Michael seems like a man of the world and will be okay- efter 9 years in the navy you have to learn to relax, he doesn't seem worried.. As for your other son, don't hurt yourself.. I know it's hard- I cared and nursed my husband at home in a wheel chair until he was too ill to be at home anymore. It almost killed me also having two adhd kids on top..
    3006 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/26/2009 9:43:17 AM
    Bless you for the love you give your family. I also have a son in the Navy and I agree that watching that carrier come is a sight to behold. I hope you can get some help transferring your son.
    3006 days ago
  • AMR6665
    I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.....

    Air Force veteran I will add a few extra prayers for your sons... emoticon
    3006 days ago
    Bless YOU!
    Sending Strength & Courage!
    YOU are a Good Mom!!!!!!!!!!!
    3006 days ago
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