Saturday, December 26, 2009
Normally being wrong is OK because at least your able to learn something from it......but this time,being wrong has scared me,and will make me a wreck for a while.
I was told by my Son Michael,he'd be shipping out to Iraq?Apthganastan? Jan.2010.I found out last night that althought the date for deployment is right,he will not spend the week home.He will be leaving Tuesday 12/29. Because he's been in the Navy over 9 years its not required of him to help load the carrier but his thought process's are " Im not leaving everyone else to do it"-Greenhorns? for lack of not knowing the correct word--So he will leave Tuesday.I never go to the base to watch any of my lids deploy.I stay home,hug them and cry for days. My husband is the one who watches them leave,Im the one who watches them come home,and what a sight that is.When the buses came around the corner with Daniel on them,it was unbielevable! and also Tommy.But I have to say watching a carrier 5 times as big as a football field come around the corner with all the sailors saluting is the most unbelievable,breath taking experince I ve had ( its trying to find your loved one after they disembark thats nerve racking,thousands of men and women!
My Husband like I said will go,which will put a strain on me as far as taking care of John by myself 7p-7a.John is only 140 #'s but is dead weight so Ill need to watch my back!.It will be tiring,stressful,and scary.My Daughter lives across the street so can help me transfer but thats about it. She's scared to learn how to feed John with the tube.The state allows me Nurses at night so we can sleep,but because John is so complex,they won't allow nurses aid.I had thought of asking for one during a few hours during the day but they won't allow it.I will have my Son Daniel,his wife to stop in,but everyone is too scared to learn how to care for John,which I understand.
So in a few days I may be on the computer yelling "help!!!" I need support,both with Michael and John!