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Friday, December 18, 2009

So I had to take an anxiety pill this morning. Last night seemed to have pushed me over the edge.

I woke about 430 and was wide awake. Decided I would go ahead and curl my hair as I've been wearing a bandana all week. I know that wasn't helping my mental status. I also put on a holiday top with my black scrubs pants. Maybe that will help. I needed to come here and get my feelings out before I go to work. It's like it's part of my routine now.

I've decided that I need to sit down and write some letters/emails tonight or tomorrow. I need help from my husband. I feel I have carried too much of the burden alone in our relationship over the years. I also need to let my boss know how I feel. My coworker's attitude affected me in a bad way the beginning of last year. Things got much better but because of recent issues, I think they are going to be spiraling backwards. This is why I know I need to look into other careers. I don't need the added stress in my life.

Right now I'm starting to feel a cross between weepy and numb. So I guess the little white pill must be working. I don't know if this means I need a stronger dosage of Zoloft. However, I really don't want a stronger dose. If work is pushing me over the edge I don't want it to be the reason I have to increase the dose. I will put in a call to my doctor on the way to work though.

Well, I need to start getting Em up & dressed. She is looking forward to her Christmas party I'm sure! I will try to take a pic so I can post for you to see later.

Thanks for listening/reading more of my mental vent!

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  • SUSAN134

    I hope your day went better than yesterday! We are here for vent away! We may only be able to grin and nod, and not have much advice, but remember that we care for you!

    3015 days ago
    This is part of the reason we are here. And if you do need to increase the meds for a time, do what you need to do. Meds can be decreased later just like they can be increased now.

    Hope the day went well for you.
    3015 days ago
  • -TAMI-
    Vent all you want. That's just one more reason for being here.
    Having a place to talk/vent and getting great support is such a wonderful thing. Thank God for technology and the internet and little white pills. emoticon
    I hope today goes much better for you and you find some peace soon. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3015 days ago
    Keep your head up! Your helping yourself right now by blogging about. Lots of love your way! emoticon emoticon
    3015 days ago
    Have a good Friday. Zoloft made me feel calmer, but also, numb a little, as did some other meds... which is better than yelling all the time, but I have something new... getting the meds right is a big deal... just keeping track of how you feel will help a ton... helps the Drs have a better insight too.

    I hope you have an excellent Friday! Sprucing your daily look up today will hopefully make you feel better too :-) B
    3015 days ago
    I'm sure Em's party will be alot of fun. We'd love to see the photo. You do what you need to do hon for your sanity and yourself. We're with ya, no matter what you decide.
    3015 days ago
    I hope that Em's party goes well and without a hitch. I am praying that your day is wonderful and that your stress level goes down. I'm thinking that you may have to just TELL DH to help you. Sometimes they don't help because they just don't pay attention and would be glad to help when it's pointed out to the that you NEED them. Love ya, Dawn emoticon
    3015 days ago
    The best thing you can do is vent and get it out! That's what we are here for - to provide an open ear and some emoticon for comfort! It's a good idea to try and communicate your feelings .
    I hope you have a good day today!
    co-leader stressed out moms/women gettin healtyh
    3015 days ago
    Sweetie you vent away whenever you feel the need. Now I feel so bad when you called last night and I was so stressed and running around like a maniac and didn't have time to talk. I especially feel bad because I still did not get to eat dinner till a little before 8 PM. (yes I did get sidetracked with that phone call I did not want from one of my loan officers)

    I hope today goes better for you today. emoticon emoticon
    3015 days ago
    Well bless you! VENTING is always good. Venting here and NOT on your hubby or boss. The hubby , you need his support...the boss....well you need the job?!
    3015 days ago
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