Friday, December 18, 2009
So I had to take an anxiety pill this morning. Last night seemed to have pushed me over the edge.
I woke about 430 and was wide awake. Decided I would go ahead and curl my hair as I've been wearing a bandana all week. I know that wasn't helping my mental status. I also put on a holiday top with my black scrubs pants. Maybe that will help. I needed to come here and get my feelings out before I go to work. It's like it's part of my routine now.
I've decided that I need to sit down and write some letters/emails tonight or tomorrow. I need help from my husband. I feel I have carried too much of the burden alone in our relationship over the years. I also need to let my boss know how I feel. My coworker's attitude affected me in a bad way the beginning of last year. Things got much better but because of recent issues, I think they are going to be spiraling backwards. This is why I know I need to look into other careers. I don't need the added stress in my life.
Right now I'm starting to feel a cross between weepy and numb. So I guess the little white pill must be working. I don't know if this means I need a stronger dosage of Zoloft. However, I really don't want a stronger dose. If work is pushing me over the edge I don't want it to be the reason I have to increase the dose. I will put in a call to my doctor on the way to work though.
Well, I need to start getting Em up & dressed. She is looking forward to her Christmas party I'm sure! I will try to take a pic so I can post for you to see later.
Thanks for listening/reading more of my mental vent!
HAPPY FRIDAY EVERYONE