Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Well, the results of the PET/CT scan were not as promising as I had hoped and I am having more chemo. My oncologist has also applied for compassionate use of a new drug that is still in clinical trials. I am not eligible for the clinical trials because I have had carboplatin in the past (and am having it again), so compassionate use it will have to be.
I'm not going to say that this has not thrown me for a complete loop. It has. However, I am not going to let this get me down. I have to admit, though, that it has not been easy. In January, I will have been receiving treatment for a year. I never thought I would still be doing chemo at this point.
Staying positive. Praying. Living life. That is what I am doing to cope. My oncologist suggested that I might consider discontinuing to work, but I told her that working keeps me sane. Who says that???? I do love what I do and I am eternally grateful that the powers that be have been flexible and let me work via distance technology while I am fighting to get well. I cannot imagine giving up work. It would seem too much like giving up.
So... I have an appointment with another oncologist on Monday. I've had two treatments so far and they haven't knocked me over. Since I am doing chemo, all of my holiday shopping has been online to avoid getting sick. I thought that would be a bit depressing, but it has been great fun! I've gotten some great deals, too --and I am all about the bargains!
That's my story and I am sticking to it.