Monday, December 14, 2009
Last week I reached my goal weight. Yeah me! I was very excited but at the same time kind of bummed. All these months I've had something to look forward to, the light at the end of the tunnel. I've reached the end of my tunnel and stepped out into the light very happy to find out that it wasn't an oncoming train. with my goal reached a sadness filled me. Now what? I read the maintaining your weight articles and reset my goal weight to my current weight with a 6 month window for maintenance. But for some reason, this seems harder than the actual weight loss period.
I told my husband that when I reached my goal I was going to have one of those big muffins at Perkins. But you know what, I'm to scared to have one. In the back of my mind I see that reward as sabotage to what I've accomplished. I know I won't put the 28 pounds back on with one muffin but what if I can't stop at one?!
Panic!!! One life lesson that I picked up along this journey is that I NEED to keep a food diary. No question about it. This isn't something that I should do, it's something that I need to do, like breathing. Without a food diary I become out of control. There's no stopping at just one giant muffin, donut or slice of cake.
I've also learned that I DON'T need dessert or sweets. After all this time, they taste funny. Moderation is key to everything. If my husband and I decide to split dessert, I try to pick the lesser evil off the menu. I can make a dessert for a pot luck or family dinner and not worry about eating it because I know it doesn't add to my success; however it may add to a step back. It goes right back to the difference between wants and needs.
I have this fear that now that I've reached my goal, I'm going to develop an eating disorder by trying not to eat the wrong things. I NEED to remind myself that I'm only human and sometimes we make mistakes. Ok, maybe a lot of the time but that's no reason to get fanatical about what I eat or don't eat.
I still have some body toning to get done but overall my weight is in a good place. Now I just have to make sure my mind is there as well.
1. I did it! I can continue to do it! If I falter, I will get up and keep going!
2. Be accountable for your actions (food diary, don't try to hide it by not writing it down)
3. Moderation is key!
When all seems lost, pick yourself up and try again. Each day is a chance to start over.