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I am over...

Sunday, December 13, 2009

the drama in my life and the mess in my apartment! Last night my Mom was to keep Em so DH & I could get apartment rearranged (due to new computer arrangement). Was furious to find Mom was having some sort of back & knee issues going on. It was obvious she'd taken meds and then on top of that I know she'd had some brandy just after we got there. This is not the norm but there were a couple of instances in the past that made me just as upset. It put me in a position of having to choose between letting Em stay or bringing her home. If Mom had told me she was having an issue before I'd brought Em over, it would've been much easier. As it was, I'd brought a friend as well so we took her back to our appt. Then we went back in separate cars in case we had to spend the night. Ended up letting Em stay there and I came back.

This morning I'm frustrated with how my apartment looks. It's a disaster. And it should have been at least part way better if I hadn't been running back and forth last night. I'm feeling so angry about the whole situation. To top this off, I have just gotten off the phone with my mother and she had no response to what I said. I realize that she may have been embarassed-which wasn't my intention. But she wouldn't even respond to my concerns or what happened in general.

I need some order in my life and my apartment! emoticon Calgon take me away...away to a spa with a massage package PLEASE.

I'm so glad I'm taking meds... emoticon cuz this would put me back over the edge. Thank you for listening/reading my venting. I feel somewhat better now.
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    Hey, you do what you need to do to keep your daughter as safe as possible. And the apartment will get put back together. Not on its own but still. Take a minute and a deep breath. This to shall pass.
    3017 days ago
    We make plans, LIFE HAPPENS. I'm sorry that you didn't get to accomplish all that you had hoped to. On the other hand, I am proud of you for looking out for the best for EM and not leaving her with your mother when she was ill & under medication (both medical and alcoholic) Maybe your mom is like THIS grandmama, who can not say NO to her grandchildren even when feeling like CRAP. Don't be angry with her for being weak. Be proud of yourself for being a good mom and making the right decision. You can get your house clean anytime. I hate chaos too but better chaotic with a house full of love and laughter than I neat house and losing your daughter if she had not been properly attended to. I hope that you get your house taken care of and take care of YOU. Love you, Dawn emoticon
    3018 days ago
    I know you were so looking forward to getting the apartment furniture rearranged. Unfortunately even the best of plans go awry. You were so excited to have your internet back after such a long absence and you just need things to get back to normal.

    Look on the bright side that you do have the internet and your rearranging will have to take a back burner till you are off next weekend. That has to be a better prospect than no internet.

    I am so emoticon things did not work out as planned.
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    3018 days ago
  • NRLB75
    Sometimes there are just those days. Today will be better. Maybe if you can get through the house chores you can take a little you time and refocus.

    It will all work out! :)
    3018 days ago
    Well hon. Try counting to 10 and let it pass. Otherwise you'll ruin your whole day being angry and frustrated. Hopefully you can get the apt. cleaned and enjoy what's left of the day. Maybe try to have a sit down with Mom and tell her why you were/are concerned and hopefully she will have a satisfying response. I'm glad you are on your meds too, sometimes they are just needed! Hope you find some comfort today and things get easier for ya.
    3018 days ago
    calgon taking you away is better than the nice young men in their clean white coats!
    3018 days ago
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