I'm trying to get into Christmas. It is hard for me. When I was growing up I don't remember any happy Christmas celebrations. When my kids were small I tried to make Christmas happy for them. Unfortunately for myself and for them I over did Christmas. Too many gifts.......but what I did right was to give them traditions. I miss them being small and seeing Christmas through the eyes of a child. Since my mother was killed in a car accident when I was six I did not have her while I was growing up. My dad did not like Christmas, but I remember some good times with him as an adult. Since my father's death, my siblings have tried to get together at Christmas. But I have not seen my brothers and sister in years. I think what we had in common was a mother and father, and now that they are gone, we have nothing in common anymore. How sad is this?

My husband loves Christmas, so I'm trying to get in the mood. I went Christmas shopping today and dreaded it! It was cold and raining, but I had to get started. Oh, how I much rather exercise, or clean house or anything except shop!

This season is nuts! It first start with hubby's birthday on Dec. 1. Then we have Christmas. Then my anniversary on Dec. 31. Don't forget New Year's Eve and Day. Then in January we have my birthday, my son's and my daughter's birthdays. Nothing but presents, presents and more presents. Yikes! Debt, debt and more.......can we just stop this insanity! I don't know if I can take it anymore. Can we just stop and breathe.......

I just want everything to slow down. I want us to enjoy this time of year. I want us to enjoy time together. Presents can be fun, but do we remember what we received last year? Time is the biggest present of all. What is wrong with this world we live in? We need to find Christmas in our heart and soul.

The spirit of Christmas is out there........I am trying to find it......when I do.......I never want to let it go! I wish for this Christmas to find hope, courage and strength, that the spirit of Christmas fills my heart.

Why do I feel I have to buy love? Is buying presents going to give me love in return? No! It never does. So, why do we buy presents just because? I just don't get it. All we need is love and acceptance, how does a gift fulfill this need? I so do care and love people so much......all I want is care and love in return.

All we need is a little Christmas........this does not mean a gift(s), but Love! The warm fuzzy feeling deep inside.......

I wish for everyone who reads this has the warmth of Christmas in your heart!

Merry Christmas Everyone with Love in My Heart!