Thursday, December 10, 2009
Well the last few months have been pretty stressful since I started a new job 12-18 hours a week, I volunteer to run a humanitarian organization helping a refugee adjust to Halifax , and of course trying to do well in 4 courses! Then there's the traveling back and forth from Quebec to NS that my boyfriend and I do for quick visits and late night chats that I so enjoy but really regret when morning rolls around. Then there's the overall missing him, and difficulties that come with a long distance relationship.
Between classes, night shifts, planning events, papers, exams and crises that seem to pop up so often I usually feel overwhelmed with a constant sense of failure in something or other! To cope I have a bad habit of binge eating sweets. I am a VERY emotional eater. I eat when I'm sad, bored and angry. As absurd as that sounds eating chocolate gets me through things at least temporarily. After of course it gives me a stomach ache and makes me embarrassed and guilty.
I have also recently began eating meat after 4 years of being ( a large) vegetarian. I did so because I thought it might help stomach issues I was having but it hasn't, I think it must be stress.
At the moment I eat a diet of fruit, sweets, bread, cereal, diary and lunch meat. Anything fast!
I love to cook, but my kitchen ends up such a mess and I'm so tired when I get home I don't get organized to cook a healthy dinner often.
Exercise right now is none existent, I keep telling myself that I will go to the gym when things die down, but now they have and I still have not gone. I just feel sick and lazy! I miss my energy from the summer. My sleep patterns at the moment dont help with late nights and sleepy days not becoming productive until the afternoon.
Anyway stress has been my major obstacle but the way I see it is what's one more thing? I need to do something for myself and a healthy lifestyle is important for the improvment of my attitude and quality of life. After a binge of 2 kinder eggs and one toblerone that were meant for Christmas stockings I can see there are problems that need to be addressed. And now is the perfect day to face this new challenge since in 5 days I will be home without school, work or volunteering!