Half on Half off track.........
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Well as all my friends here at Sp know I have not been on here in a while. I feel I have been half on and half off track for the last couple of weeks. I want to thank all of you for your support.
I have had a lot going on in my life here lately as I am sure everyone here can relate at this time of year. It is not only Christmas coming up that has thrown me off track.
A couple of people had found me on the internet about the middle of November. That I have not seen or spoken to in over 16 years. These people have brought back many great memories and one has rekindled some feelings that I have been dealing with over the last couple of weeks. I don't eat and I don't sleep, which is not a good thing at times. When I walked away from these people I only had that choice under the circumstances at the time. We had lost touch not long after that.
I went to the doctor on Monday and he gave me a compliment that was great.
He had told me that out of all of his weight loss patients I have been the only one to stay committed and continuously lose. He ask what program I was on and I told him I don't think I could have done this good without SP friends and the support that you guys give here. He even gave me a much needed hug. Understand that the community that I live in is small. Not that small but small if that makes sense.
Also on top of all that I just turned 48 on the 8th of December and was having a hard time with that the week before my birthday. Everyone kept asking if I was okay and I was depressed for a little while. Then on that day I woke up with a new commitment to myself. I REFUSE TO BE OR FEEL OLD ANY LONGER.... like I told my doctor I have not felt this good health wise or mind wise in a very long time.
Well as always I do have to thank all of my friends here at SP because without you guys I don't think I would have made it this far and would not have exceeded the 30lbs that I have lost in the last 3 months. So I Thank You Guys for the support and inspiration that you give me.
I am back with a little extra emotional luggage that I will have to deal with because I know it will not just go away. I will have to find constructive things to do and work through this no matter the end results.
Again thank you guys for everything...
Have a wonderful day.