Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I do. I remember stuff and it echoes in my brain, whether I want it to or not. Sometimes I can't get rid of whatever it is - the thoughts, the habits, the pounds. I just have trouble letting go.
I have no advice for myself. I hold onto resentments I don't want, emotions I don't want, habits I don't want, and, definitely, pounds I don't want. I try to empty my mind, put the resentments or emotions in a bubble and watch it float away - and back they are, in my brain.
I need a "pensive" like Dumbledore, where I can literally pull the thought out of my brain and put it in the container, to be brought out later if and when I need it.
But right now, what someone did on Monday is still bugging me. And I can't shake it. I keep trying. I've talked it out, I've thought it out, but I can't get it out. I feel like Lady Macbeth - "out, damned thought, out I say." Only it won't go.