Sunday, December 06, 2009
Where do we draw the line between motivation and reality. Could it be time to switch to a different exercise? Are the docs and physical therapists right? As I sit here at my computer with a knee that hurts so bad I can barely go down stairs I am starting to wonder if I am doing this wrong. Where does it all end? My stomach is killing me from constantly taking anti-inflammatories. My mom thinks I need to bump up to prescription strength antacids to protect my stomach. I am feeling that if I am getting prescription nsaids, prescription antacids, PT, MRI's, maybe this is too much. Maybe this is preventable and I am causing myself all this trouble. Maybe a marathon is NOT in my future. I don't want to set myself up for failure, but I want a goal that motivates and pushes me. I found out more about myself when I was training for the half-marathon. I didn't know that I am competitive. I didn't know that I cared about achieving my goals. When I got injured with just a month to the half I was in a panic! If the PT asked me to do 1 set of exercises I did 3. When I was told to ice every 3 hours for the next few days, I did it for 3 weeks. When nothing was working I was depressed, and moped around my house feeling sorry for myself. My husband and family don't deserve to deal with this all the time. Im just not sure where I should focus my energy.